I've sms my special boy on Thursday. And it's finally i've got contact with him. But it somehow doesn't turn out to be good. He doesn't looks like he use to be. He has changed to another person sort of feeling. I ask him does he still likes me, he only reply why i ask him this kind of question. Which obviously, i can already tells that the answer was no.

Hai... what has happen to my relationship??? how come both of my boy is like that? why do they want to treat me like? this moment was like this and the next was acting the other way. why do they always change so suddenly? it was like i'm holding on to a very big bomb. which makes me feels so scare and tired.

I'm really feeling very stress out about relationship. i'm tired, i need a shoulder a hug maybe, to calm me down. i'm also a female, i need love and care but i just don't get the chance of getting such love and care that i need. i started to lose faith in man, lose faith in marriage. I'm just so scare of stepping into any relationships anymore. i don't think i can take it anymore...