09 Oct [ Thursday], I had went to play badminton with Hui & Yan at the CC near my house. We've played for 2 hrs. Was quite fun actually... But i was very rush that day coz... Raj called me and wake me up in the afternoon at around 12 plus. He told me that his student has already help him to get a job for me and ask me to call to ask if there's any vacancies... therefore, i've given it a try and the person call me to send in my resume, will call back when shortlisted.

After awhile, the person really called back and ask me what time can i go for interview and i say at about 6pm. BUT... end up i'm still late for the interview coz after badminton we went to eat something. The stupid cab fare was damn ex sia... $17... But lucky, i've got the job and was starting on Monday... Thanks Raj for helping me...

10 Oct [ Friday], have woke up late today too but lucky i was being waken by... so wasn't still very late yet i guess. Went to give tuition at 8pm... same thing haha...

weird that today me part time never called or sms me. therefore, i gave him msg after my class and while waiting for yan to finish work [coz i went to find her]. He replied me very coldly, which makes me feel very sad and says that he's going to meet another girl. he wants me from that day onwards, don't call or msg him too oftenly, maybe the girl won't like it. or better don't ever call or msg him already.

At that very moment i was damn sad... i feel like crying and you know what? I kept thinking i don't think i will be able to cry out de coz that time when my boy hurt me so much, not even a single tear drops down. but this time it's really weird that while i'm looking at the star in the sky, my tears just drop like this and i was standing outside yan's working place crying. Really surprise me... think i was too tired and really disappointed in relationships le ba... that's why i started to cry or maybe because he's too important for me le ba.

Suddenly, my part time called me. he ask me if i did receive his sms at the later part after he told me not to contact him. and i said no, i didn't see it. he ask me if i will still reply him or not if i saw the sms. i ask him to hold on for awhile and i take a look at the sms, then i told him no as he has already told me not to contact him anymore. at that time i started to cry again but i didn't want him to notice. so every questions that he ask, i didn't answer except for emm... but i don't think i can hang on any longer so i told him that i will give him a call later... but end up, i didn't call him at all as i don't feel that i'm ready to call him.

But he called me alot of times. on the 6th call then i answer that phone. thought i was strong enough to answer his call but end up i still burst out. he said that he's so worried and sad when he heard that my voice have sadness. he told me don't ever cry. he doesn't want me to cry, he wants me to be happy. but i really don't know if i'm able to do it or not. i'm really scare...

These few days, i'm really worried about him as he has got not enough money to eat or take MRT to work already. and from Saturday onwards he hasn't eaten any rice. Wonder how was he already.