Hai... finally got thru 1st week of week last week and was starting on a new 2nd week. today's Tues and i was here, telling everyone that i wanted to quit the job already. i"m very tired already and help no strength for the boss stupid nonsense. really ridiculous sia... from yesterday onwards kept picking on me. guess after 3 month he won't want me already if i haven't quit by then, which, wasn't possible if my interview was in success today.

really don't like to travel here to work anymore. too far already and i was kept on rushing but actually nope as i always try my best to be late but end up i still reach quite early. feel like taking a break already. think i wasn't suitable for office job as it's way too boring and wasn't challenging at all. which jian zhou also very agree. he told me that he feels that i'm the kind of person who likes to do sales like sales assistant as he just seems to him that I learn something from it n i seems happy when i'm doing sales. which i myself feels quite true as i really enjoys it cos when i see customers very satisfy with the products that we produce to them, i will be very happy.

Guess from the beginning i should have go look for these kind of job ba. But because never work in the office before that's why i want to try but end up the results was damn bad. so i guess what i'm suitable at was those jobs that can really keep me very busy i think coz at least like that i won't think too much or becoming very lazy.

Now i'm very scare already, as i started to forget how to shuffle card already and dealing was like rusty plus my mental calculation was like shit already. i can be able to do simple calculation last night. really very dangerous for me and now, i'm really worry if i can go ir work anot. what if they don't want me??? what am i suppose to do??? think i will gone crazy...

oh god... please tell me what am i suppose to do now... Please...