So happy that i today don't have to go work as i've taken a leave. actually wanted to go school today but end up my friend, Chris can't make it due to heavy rain. have so many things that i wanted to talk to him about as he has successfully pass his genting interview and was joining them on 29 Oct. So today might be the last time i see him. who knows, the weather was so bad that we can't be able to meet.

But he promise me that if he has got the chance, he will still ask me out again. haha...

hmmm... today went to yan's school and i have my lurch there. it was very cheap and i really eat very full but it doesn't taste really like what yan say that nice but still ok. after that we went to orchard to help chen take his mp3 to repair then we go bugis to buy jian zhou's bdae present. went to quite a number of place today. haha... it's so rare that i can go shopping on weekdays due to this stupid waste time job i've got now. then went to give joey tuition as she's going to have maths exam on friday already so maybe tomorrow i'm still going too...

What's happening to my part time already? why he didn't start smsing me since yesterday? especially today, he seems to be like avoiding me. he didn't reply any of my msg except one saying that he's busy. what's happening to him already? it's not like the usual him at all. i'm really scare that he will be like xi, suddenly just cut off smsing me and then stop then disappear just like this. i really don't know what happen to him, what happen to guys nowadays. i don't understand what does the guys were thinking about. why can they just do something like this.

i kept asking myself, if he is also the same as xi, what am i suppose to do? can i still believe in relationships in this whole world? can i still believe in guys? can i believe in what they say? do i still have faith in them?

i really don't know. what i know is i'm scare already. scare about guy's sweet talk, scare about giving in to relationships again. think i won't believe in true love anymore as i don't think there's really true love in this world coz all of them were fairytales.