After this few days of thinking... I don't really have a good rest nor good sleep at night. I can't be able to tell myself to get over everything around no matter is my full time nor part time boy. I just feel very hurt.

I've been thinking very carefully and ask myself over and over again. What wrong have I made? Why is it that everyone was treating me like this. I'm a lady, a lady who wish to be love by others too. But what had really happen? Could there be any answer to it?

He don't really wants to talk to me already. He break his promises already, he lied to me...

I really can't stand it already. I've feel really hurt enough when Xi treat me that way. I don't wish to get another bit of hurt again. A broken hurt could never stand another blow.

Guess I have to learn to give up on him. Go back to my original place and start a new life.