These few days, I wasn't feeling very right at all with my part time boy. He seems to be avoiding me more and more often. Until the day before yesterday, he even start to sms only once a day and didn't even call me already.

Did i do something wrong or has he found a new target already? I really don't know. But my heart feels very very painful all day long, even breathing has also start to have difficulty. What has happen in between us? I've got a feeling that he will be leaving me very soon.

He told me today that his girlfriend maybe will be coming to Singapore in 2-3 weeks time. Guess it might this reason that he's avoiding me also.

I'm so really sad... Now that everyone in my life was about to leave me very soon. Why isn't there anyone love me? Uncle might be going out with his friend's sister, my boy has already completely start sms me and leave me already, my younger brother can no longer like he was young, always stay with me and now my part timeis avoiding me, guess he will leave me very soon too.

Why? Why is everyone leaving me? What have I done? Is it because I don't ever deserve to be loved? or I don't deserve to fall in love? Why is everything like a lie, a joke to me? Fate, Life just like to joke and making fun of me isn't it?

It can suddenly let me feel so beloved by others but suddenly let me lose everything just in split second. I really hate it, hate everything...