Has been a few days that i've not been feeling very good. This kind of feeling has started since Sunday, and i'm feeling very sad. I've cried on Sunday and then it's yesterday again, i've cried. The reasons was i'm afraid of losing my darling, i'm scared he doesn't want to talk to me anymore.

I don't know why, he was the only one that i will feel sad and cried if one day he ever won't talk to me anymore. I don't want him to leave me, i want him to be with me, by my side.

He told me he was scared, he says that i'm really a good girl, that's why he like me, i'm smart (iow), that's why he like me. He don't want me to get hurt and told me that don't ever hurt myself. He wants me to take good care of myself. He doesn't want me to cry or get sad as he will also get sad too. He wants me to always be happy.

But i don't know, my heart really feels very painful and feels like crying every night.

Darling... I love you...