It's been about a week that i can't be able to contact darling already. I'm really very upset and miss him plus started to get all day worry. I really can't figure out what really happen until a few minutes ago, I check my email using my old lappy then I've found out that he has email me on Saturday [10 Jan], telling me that he has lost his phone and ask me to email him my number. Really damn shit with my this new lappy, don't know what's wrong that I can't check my emails for several days already. Ohhh.... I hope darling could read his mail very soon and then give me a call or maybe receive a msg from him.

Yesterday bring maomao to eat Sakae Sushi at JP to celebrate his 12 year old birthday. As per normal, after eating, I will buy a froggie for him and now, he's got a total of 5 froggies already.

Weird thing happen yesterday. My ex malaysian boyfriend suddenly sms again. He apologised to me of what he has done and hurting me. He also told me that he has got married, but he hasn't got over me yet. No wonder I felt very weird that why he would suddenly sms me and ask me some weird questions like if i had really got over him already. In fact, I couldn't make any lies from my heart, as i really haven got over him yet as i will still think of him but not that often. But... What I can say that he's not that important to me as he use to be. I then notice that whether he did sms to me again or not, I didn't get any haapy as i once were. He ask me if we could be like we use to be or not? He hopes that we can be together like last time, our happy memories. But I don't think we can already cos he's already gotten married and all of the things has changed, nothing in the whole world can change back to the original place.

I've finally take my contact lens yesterday. Wearing contact lens was really weird. There's a kind of weird feeling when wearing the lens. Like there's a thin piece of plastic was placed on your eyeball. But I think I will be able to get use to wearing it very soon... hehe... Jia you....

Dear... I really hope you can call me...