I'm so vexed and irritated... I'm really getting headache... I'm lost now, lost in a huge forest, finding my way out. Maybe, what dear say was right. In the whole world, casino job wasn't the only one, there's still others. If I'm not shortlisted, I can still look for other jobs. But, I guess if only I've got a higher educated cert, I will feel better.

Valentine was also near... And I still haven got a partner to celebrate this occasion with me. Hmmm... Guess i'm a total failure. No job, No partner, no good cert, no to everything...

Sometimes, I was thinking... Why in the earth that I came to this world? I was such an embrassing art work done by my parents. I can't handle simple thing like friendship. I don't even dare to speak out or make a friend... Not pretty at all, and still don't know how to make up and dress up...

people say that they feel that I'm a kind person, a caring and thoughtful one. But guess it's a lie... No confident and so I don't feel brave enough to face the world. Always been looked down by people. What the hulk was this?

I've always imagine that I've got a really nice partner, nice job and nice family. I've got everything I want but, that wasn't true. It's all imaginary, a fake one...

I hate valentine...