I'm not feeling very good right now. It's like I'm losing confident in what I aimed to do. Suddenly I've got the feeling that I might to be recruited by Sands. It seems like everyone was telling me that I'm not suitable for the job and Sands will not be hiring us as they want to hire someone with casino experience. I'm really very confused, I don't have the confident already.

What if? Sands don't employ me? What am I suppose to do? I really don't dare to see, dream or think about it. What's worse, I don't even have a Diploma. Now, I know what kind of course I'm interested in already but guess it's too late cos my dad doesn't want to spend any money on me. So, I've got to look for a job and earn loads of money to sponsor myself. But, the employment status now are really bad and I really can't find any job at all.

Oh man... What am I going to do? Guess I've got to be more hardworking by taking more jobs or maybe have two to three jobs in a week. Although it's of no difference to what I'm doing now cos I'm taking 2 already... I just hope to earn more money so that I've got the money to go pick up the course that I want.

Oh... May god bless me...