Another week had just gone... Without realising it, I've already been working at the turf club for almost a month already. And hurray that I'm going to receive my pay very soon. But here I am still looking for another job. but guess it's still not on the track yet cos I've haven got past any interviews yet and was still looking for one.

Hmmm... Jia you ba...

Anyway, haven reply Xi's smses yet. Cos I really don't know how to start the topic. Though I'm very sure that I shouldn't have reply so that he won't think too much but what Raj say was actually right. Even if we can't be together, we could stay be friends. So I should at least reply him and tell him how I feel and what I really think.

BUT... I guess it's still hard for me to start the text. I'm still thinking of him and even his birthday, I was thinking of whether I should give him a present or not. Hmmm... but what I know now was I only treat him as a friend already and not that kind of feeling. Cos I already told myself that I should let him go and hope that he will treat his wife better.

Hmmm... Now that when I think back, lucky I didn't anyhow.com with him the last time if not, I might be his wife now already and not his current wife. It's lucky for me, this is what I can say, if not mama sure will kill me.

Think I've got to open my eyes wide the next time when I'm looking for a partner that I want to spend my entire life with....