i'm feeling absolutely out and sad today except for morning cos Jolynn had made me breakfast... a really delicious breakfast... and it's really rich in ingredients added... plus mine is a very special order as there isn't any tomatoes in my sandwich due to i don't eat veggies... haha...

sad thing was i had cried for the whole night... now my eyes was like abit swollen and i'm really very tired and sleepy... my heart is aching very much... it's all that pig pig fault la... called and talk alot of rubbish... he's really hurting me very much... don't like him like this... always don't believe what i had say... don't trust me at all... sian sia...

i really hope that he could believe me... and stop thinking of others. just thinking purely will do... though i was pretty happy yesterday that he brought me to watch football match... but just before the football match, the both of us turn really unhappy... i had even lost appetite... i'm so sad... i've thought him alot of my past but he believes none of them... shit...

think we are unable to stay like that forever as he told me if one day he leave me, just take good care of myself and look very carefully of what i can do and what i can't do...