don't know why, after chatting with yiling as she ask me if pig pig were to go genting with us or anot... which i replied no bcos of his girl... it's like yiling suddenly asked me, do i feel happy or not... how do i feel???


to these very questions... i really don't know how to answer and i don't have to the answer to the questions...


don't know why, i was like suddenly feel awaken, it's like yiling suddenly giveme a really heavy slap for me to wake up and think carefully what should i do...


i feel really happy to be with pig pig... but no matter how happy am i, there's always still a girl standing in between of us... i could only feel that i'm very happy, i just wanted to be enjoy my every moments with him.... this lead to make me feel that i'm really really very selfish... it just to let me feel so contented and then destroy others happiness...


here i ask myself again, is this what i wanted?

I really don't know... i don't want to destroy other people's happiness but i just accidentally fall for someone that i shouldn't have... i know how it feels when your happiness was being destroyed by another girl but... hai...

oh man... what should i do now?