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switch blog

2009-09-03T15:40:00.003+08:00

hi guys... i've switch my blog to http://www.never-to-believe.blogspot.com/
but will still be using this blog too... so if you don't want to delete this blog it's still okay. hehe ^.^

Goodie Bag

2009-08-28T17:05:00.002+08:00

Help to do some packing of goodie bags just now...
though the bag look quite small, things quite little
but the bag was still quite heavy...

think they have put expensive stuff inside. haha...

i like the colour of the goodie bag this time round coz it's blue...
very nice colour...

hmmm... tml and sun don't have to help out in their event
so was like quite lucky can sleep alittle more...

yes going to knock off very soon... bye...

hai... don't know when joey want to have her tuition sia...

spending...

2009-08-28T10:54:00.002+08:00

i feel that i'm a really scary person... coz whenever i'm feeling down, i tend to let out my feelings thru spending loads of money... really feel wasted after the spending...

hmmm... really feel stupid last night coz i was crying while watching a show. haha... like pig leh... don't know cry for what sia...

anyway... i've been thinking and choosing the kind of ideal present that i can buy for myself as a bdae present... haha... just love myself that loads loads...

hai...

2009-08-26T16:38:00.002+08:00

have been busy with doing my new blog recently... the editings was making me crazy... the blogskins making me dizzy too but at least i've finally chose the one i want my blog to look like. simple and nice.

had extended my stay at NTUC media till end of sep already. which means one more month of extra money... that's good...

haha... i was now thinking of what should i get myself for my coming bdae... hmmm...

anyway... once my new blog was ready, every thing will be switched over...

bye...

getting tired or excited?

2009-08-20T16:58:00.002+08:00

i'm very sleepy now... think it's bocz i slept late last night plus had zte very full last night too... bcoz it's my mum's bdae...

tml morning i'm going to genting... and i don't know why i'm not that very excited as before...
think it's bcoz today i'm still working and tml i'm off to genting then sunday com back to Singapore and monday back to work again... so it's kinda of rush for me, i think...

have been doing some stupid job recently... it's like very waste of my time... can't play fb due to i changed seat to the table just in front COO... sian

hope i could take a long break asap... but guess i stll gotta work one more month before i can go for a long break...

so jia you...

Changing again...

2009-08-11T16:34:00.002+08:00

i've changed blogskin again due to some unknown faulty to the previous skin... very stupid...

anyway... had finally come back to work after a long weekend... but i've also brought my flu back to office too... hai... my nose is dropping off already...

let's see what i've done on sat...

hmm... actually nothing much i've do... but just giving Jordan tuition... and ex-darling sms and called me to ask me out which end up i didn't turn up coz i feel that there's no point of seeing him... plus i will feel really uncomfortable if we ever meet up... even the topic we chat thru sms also becoming to have some weird weird de feeling...

i had also told pig pig about this and he was like very angry and feeling uncomfortable that he had called... it was like i wonder if he was jealous about it... ex darling had ask me about how much do pig pig love me and do i think we can even maintain this relationship when i work in the casino... end up, it's like i really can not answer these questions and i had no clue about it...

hai... why is it always like this sia... sian leh...

Sunday [9 Aug], National Day... really boring... got nowhere to go... sleep till 2 plus in the afternoon then wake up... at about 3 plus went up with mama and papa... we went to JP again to shop and papa had bought loads of spy wine cooler... very tasty... have sweet smell sia... but we went home early cos we don't want to take pleague at the NTUC as they will stop operating for about 20 mins to take the pleague... very bad right? haha...

yesterday, Monday[10 Aug]... didn't go anywhere but just stay home watch tv, do ironing till 3 plus then went out with pig pig to eat some fingerfood at JP... we've ate ice cream at Bento... very nicey...

finally... it's today... man... i feel really sleepy and headache... it's like i really feel like going home right now... sian already... haha...

but... i can't go home after work yet cos got to meet yiling at Jp to buy iphone screen protector... wonder if it's ex or not sia...

hmmm... pig pig can't go Genting with us [yiling, her bro, her mum and me] already... due to his mum going for an operation on the day before we go Genting... got a bit disappointed actually cos i was reall hoping for some slim chances that he will go with us... hai...

Boring...

2009-08-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

I'm really feeling very bored now... Pig Pig got no time to call me and anyway, he's unable to call me coz his uncle was beside him.

So I was like studying my iPhone to see how this blogger blog works on this phone as it' very weird looking after a few blogs I've updated in the other links.

Hai... How come do one blogging also so difficult leh? Haha...

Hope I can get use to this phone blogging soon... If not, I'm gonna have a lot of white hair very soon.

Yeah...

2009-08-07T16:35:00.003+08:00

oh yes... I've finally finished with my blogskin editing... it's like i'm taking forever to edit the whole especially when i'm not even sure on how to do this coding thingy...

there's still some updates haven been done... and i hope i could complete it very soon too... haha...
hmmm... hope this blogskin won't look too messy or childish... though i quite like the skin... haha...

and yeah too... to i finally finished opening all the entries that have been send in on Monday... it's like way way too many le ba... and it's my first time from my first day of work till now, the most entries received... hai...

finally completed everything and i was like really very exhausted already... can take at least 3 days of rest le cos Monday public holiday... very good...

hmmm... still thinking of what am i going to do on monday...

very angry sia...

2009-08-06T10:09:00.002+08:00

today has late for work for no reason... cos it's definitely not my fault but the train's fault... make me rush until like mad lor... hai... don't know why the train has this default for so many times le then it's like they don't even bother to repair it sia... really angry...

anyway... early in the morning so angry also no use...

Yesterday i finally go to renew my passport already... so happy sia... i hope i can faster get my new passport soon cos i'm going to genting this 21st...

pig pig had kept me accompanied the whole half day yesterday... he companied me to ICA to renew my passport...

well... i don't know yesterday the feeling with him was seems to be like very weird... and when we are together, it's like i really don't know what to talk to him... he could see that i'm very sad but he can't actually do anything to make me happy for that very moment...

i really don't know what am i thinking about... but what i know was that i'm really very very vexed about all these things that have happened... so tired of handling and thinking of all these problems le... why can't i just be a normal happy person???

actually, i really feel very happy that he comes to find me and accompanied me the whole half day... but i'm really afraid to lose him... haiz... what should i do sia??? so fan ren...

changing skin...

2009-08-05T10:02:00.002+08:00

hmm... have been thinking of changing blog skin these few days and i'm still looking for the one i really like...

but.... i still don't know which one should choose... can't decide... argh....

hai...

i'm coming out with my working life blog very soon... it contain things happening only in my working life... but most of my daily things, i will still blog it on my main blog, i think... haha...

anyway, i've also had a blog in wordpress... it the blog i will do thru iPhone while i'm boring when i was in MRT or so on... hope to post everything up asap...

painful heart, lonely soul...

2009-08-04T13:11:00.002+08:00

I realised i've got a very painful heart, lonely soul... No matter how happy am i to be able to be with pig pig, but in the end, he still isn't my anybody...

what i always do was to only wait and wait... i've been waiting for that somebody to appear but no matter how long i've waited, that somebody will never appear...

i've been waiting for someone's call all day long but no matter how long i've waited, there isn't any call comes in...

hai... now then i realised everything... i'm just a nobody...

after chat...

2009-08-03T15:04:00.003+08:00

don't know why, after chatting with yiling as she ask me if pig pig were to go genting with us or anot... which i replied no bcos of his girl... it's like yiling suddenly asked me, do i feel happy or not... how do i feel???

to these very questions... i really don't know how to answer and i don't have to the answer to the questions...

don't know why, i was like suddenly feel awaken, it's like yiling suddenly giveme a really heavy slap for me to wake up and think carefully what should i do...

i feel really happy to be with pig pig... but no matter how happy am i, there's always still a girl standing in between of us... i could only feel that i'm very happy, i just wanted to be enjoy my every moments with him.... this lead to make me feel that i'm really really very selfish... it just to let me feel so contented and then destroy others happiness...

here i ask myself again, is this what i wanted?

I really don't know... i don't want to destroy other people's happiness but i just accidentally fall for someone that i shouldn't have... i know how it feels when your happiness was being destroyed by another girl but... hai...

oh man... what should i do now?

whole week...

2009-07-31T16:05:00.001+08:00

Last sunday [26 Jul], had walk to JP with papa, mama and maomao again... we have our dinner there and then go for a short shopping... papa had bought two bottles of red wine... guess it's really nice cos it has high recommendations by the professional wine taster plus it really cost very expensive... after we reach home, we drink the bottle of wine that pig pig gave me... don't know why it's like quite dilute and doesn't really have wine taste...

at about 10 plus, pig pig say he will come and meet me, then we went to have dinner together [of cos i didn't eat] and after dinner, we went to a nearby void deck to have some wine which we bought from 7-eleven... pig pig was like abit red red... haha... very cute sia...

actually there's nothing really special happening this whole week... except that Monday [27 Jul],
i've went to bugis to find pig pig and have our lurch there, Tuesday [28 Jul] had went to work half hour earlier, so that i could have half an hour more break, as i have to go suntec to hand in the rest of my documents to MBS... and i've also have my lurch there with pig pig...and lastly, took a half day noon on wed to collect my iPhone... which is finally here...

Friday [31Jul], have firedrill today... hai... already feeling very tired the whole week and still we got firedrill... sian... it's like very unusual quiet in the office today... think it's bcos of firedrill and so alot of them had took leave... headache sia...

acutally, after the firedrill, i found that it's actually quite fun to do it... it looks like more to go outings than doing firedrill... everyone was like chit chatting all the way.... haha... really enjoying and it's also the first time ever since i last drill in sec sch...

EA...

2009-07-23T12:34:00.002+08:00

I've woke up a little early this morning to attend MBS signing of EA... hmm... don't know why i get very nervous when i was close to the time... it's like very weird lor... haha...

i thought i will be late for the letter of EA but lucky, i wasn't... haha... we got a small talk in a hall first before we proceed to a room for us to sit down and think about whether we want to join MBS or not...

it's like i'm not thinking about it at all... cos once i sit down, i just took out everything from the package and start filling up everything... it's like i've took at least 2hrs to complete the whole set of papers... really surrender to it... cos it's really thick and very detailed... it wants all your information... and i kept writing the wrong thing as i'm really nervous and my hands are really shaky...

haha...

after that, i went to Marina Square to drink a cup of coffee while waiting for pig pig... then we went to east coast road to eat prawn noodles as the prawn noodles sold there was really delicious...

after eating, we go to changi airport to walk walk and see plane... he bought me a carebear which is my beloved goodluck bear... just love it... it's like he finally agrees to take pics with me but too bad can't show to anyone... haha...

we took MRT back together cos he's going to joo koon to watch ball match. he actually wanted to bring me along but scare that his bro will saw us so no choice, he meet his bro at lakeside and then drive him there... so that he can still keep me accompanied a little while more... hehe... so sweet...

but on the way in the MRT, i heard him talking quite fiercely to his girlfriend... it's like i never thought that he would talk so fiercely to a girl like that before... was like got scared by him... i just hope that he could always have a smile on his face and not fierce look or looking moody or unhappy... cos he has go a very sweet and cute smile...

am i lucky or unlucky???

2009-07-22T23:14:00.006+08:00

Today there's solar eclipse in the morning from 8am to 10am... pig pig called and tell me that the whole process of the solar eclipse will be on the tv and i feel like watching the tv but got to work...

but end up, i took a half day leave in the morning, not because i wanted to watch the tv but because i'm late for work as there's default in the train and the train can't move since 8.25am to 8.45am and i'm still at lakeside... by the time it reaches chinese garden, it's already 8.55am... so, i give up in rushing to work but headed home to watch the solar eclipse...

it's really nice, but too bad we can't watch it in singapore... -_-''' anyway, had meet pig pig after the show, and we go to eat some vegetarian food... then go to holland village to walk walk and drink something... we did chat some about his past and future what he should plan to do in order to earn more money... i hope he really success in everything he do... after that, i went to work as i'm only on half day leave...

don't know why i just like to be with him... it just feel so comfortable to be with him... hai...

and yes... tml i'm on a full day leave again cos i got to go suntec to sign employment agreement letter... always looking forward to his moment...

so no mood...

2009-07-21T09:36:00.003+08:00

i'm feeling absolutely out and sad today except for morning cos Jolynn had made me breakfast... a really delicious breakfast... and it's really rich in ingredients added... plus mine is a very special order as there isn't any tomatoes in my sandwich due to i don't eat veggies... haha...

sad thing was i had cried for the whole night... now my eyes was like abit swollen and i'm really very tired and sleepy... my heart is aching very much... it's all that pig pig fault la... called and talk alot of rubbish... he's really hurting me very much... don't like him like this... always don't believe what i had say... don't trust me at all... sian sia...

i really hope that he could believe me... and stop thinking of others. just thinking purely will do... though i was pretty happy yesterday that he brought me to watch football match... but just before the football match, the both of us turn really unhappy... i had even lost appetite... i'm so sad... i've thought him alot of my past but he believes none of them... shit...

think we are unable to stay like that forever as he told me if one day he leave me, just take good care of myself and look very carefully of what i can do and what i can't do...

it's monday again...

2009-07-20T11:43:00.003+08:00

it's monday again, the last sixth monday for me at NTUC Media... it's like time really pass by very fast... things had changed alot thru this half year of working in this company... and i, had really learn alot thru working in this company, make alot of friends... plus my typing skills had also improve alot... really nice working here...

anyway... i've finally got someone to help me write reference letter which i'm very headache about thruout the whole weekend cos MBS need it though it's not compulsory... and i've also finally got three reference people too... that's wendy from turf club [nice but strict lady], lilian from NTUC media [friendly aunt...] and jolynn from NTUC media too [don't trust anyone that much except me, haha... really a good friend friend to me].

Joseph had agreed to help me write the reference letter and will give it to me on Wed... so it was like i'm very excited about it and was feeling happy that i finally found someone to help wirte a reference letter... it's like better than the turf club de. don't have to wait for two weeks before i can get my letter...

Not enough sleep @_@

2009-07-19T14:17:00.015+08:00

The crystal chess set for maomao...

I've finding this crystal chess set for a very long time already... it's like i finally saw it at downtown east the last time i went to watch movie with my company... so it's like i got to really buy this by heaven's will as i've invited to the chalet and shun bian buy this crystal chess set... very nice and elegant right... i really like it and i believe maomao also love it very much as he kept calling me when will i bring it home for it... hmmm... it looks like he can't wait to receive this very nice gift anymore...

Had finally reached the chalet and i was like attracted to the designs on the wall... nice right... it was then i know that they are celebrating three of my colleague's bdae...

was really very fun and i really enjoying. it's also especially that we are having high class BBQ... cos they prepared everything in a very high class and leisure way... food prepared are also very high class and delicious... yum yum...

Chris

Jimmy, Sam, Audrey

it's jimmy & me

audrey & mi

the 2 bdae man, chris & jimmy

stupid face

weird sam, dunno wat's he doing -_-'''

high class rite?

audrey, me and jolynn

i really like this lady... she's really cute...

jolynn's son, Joel

what are they doing?

it's mi waiting for others to guess what's

audrey & chris doing...

opps... got caught for not drinking...

hui bing & her boy, guo wei...

mi & huibing

mi again... resting...

hmmm???

haha... thinking of how to make sam drunk more...
[actually sam's already drunk... very bad leh...]

yeah cake time... chris & his face on the fan... haha...

jimmy

weird post...

nice cake...

so happy...

hu...

let's cut...

hai... i'm being block by sam -_-'''

finally i can take pics with the 3 of them..

imitating someone...

enjoying audrey's imitating

boo...

haha... fun...

sam's got drunk and was talking rubbish already...

disappointing...

2009-07-17T12:08:00.002+08:00

after yesterday's movie i was really disappointed with Harry Potter's ending cos it's really no head, no tail [translate directly from chinese, haha...]. really... this is the very first time i feel so kana cheated sia... i really hope that there's continue of the movie... if not, it's like really lost...

had also spent quite alot of money yesterday... buy this buy that... pay this pay that... really headache... i hope to save alot before the age of 35 so that i can buy a house of my own sia... haha... like very rich sort of feeling...

anyway... tonight after work, i'm going to chalet with my colleague... but they are not in the office today cos they will go to check in first... and me, this poor little thingy here still working... haiz... i hope i will enjoy this chalet... it's been a very long time that i've been to chalet already...

hmmm... MBS called me today, telling me that my letter of Appointment was ready... and i've been asked to go down to Suntec on 23 July at 9 am to sign the letter... wow... i'm so excited already... cos it's like i'm about to start work there and it will be my full time job over there... haha...

emm... don't know why suddenly got the feeling of finding my another half soon, get married and then give birth to a new little life... think it's bcos i've heard alot of my secondary school got married and had little ones already ba... think what everyone say was really right... by the time you are near to the age of 26, ladies will start to think of their future already... guess i'm getting close very soon... haha... old already la... plus getting more and more mature? haha...

off.... hais...

2009-07-16T17:50:00.004+08:00

had taken off yesterday again... feel very nice... but... can't take for fun anymore cos got to save it for MBS...

yesterday had went out with pig pig the whole day again... the feeling was really nice... like going out with my boyfriend, real boyfriend... quite like it... but somehow... i like still can't take it or even accept to have a boyfriend in life to give him every sec of my time yet, though the feeling is nice...

well, i don't know, the way he treats me was really like treating his girlfriend... he cares alot for me... and he's always jealous when i told him about my pass relationships which i don't know if it's good or bad for him or me about getting jealous... he will worry for me if i'm going out alone or going out with ppl whom i don't really know[which the chances are low for me to go out with ppl that i don't know him/her that much].

sometimes it's even weird that, i can actually know what is he thinking of and what's he doing at the very moment... he too can sometimes know what i'm thinking... why is this so sia??? i just the feeling of being together with him, but i really don't know if it's correct or wrong...

i've actually gotten jealous when the moment his girl called and sometimes i'm really very unhappy with it, when he didn't answer his girl's phone... this is really weird...

sian... i was wondering if he's single then i won't have such a big question mark already isn't it?

hmmm... anyway... don't think too much about it already... cos life is just this short... why bother to care all this... what's more important is have i found my goal and have i achieve it or not...

anyway, pig pig brought me to east coast road to eat prawn noodles... the prawns was like really damn big la... taste nice also... haha... he also ordered wu xiang for me to eat but too bad cos i don't eat that, i only like the spring roll... don't why it's like i was thinking that he will say that, actually he don't want to buy spring roll de but bcos i like to eat so he buy for me... just finish thinking, he really says that sentence out... really scare me...

after eating, he say we will go to parkway parade to shop shop. then i suggested why not we walk there as he say it wasn't too far from where we are... so end up both of us walk to parkway so that we can also chat along the way... haha... when we reach parkway, i told him that i want to open an UOB account to save money if not, only depending on my POSB account, i can't save any money de... so he brought me to the bank to open the account...

very funny was the teller thought that he's my boyfriend which i say nope... then it's like he don't believe cos where on earth will there be a guy so good to accompany a girl friend to open an account... he even thought that pig pig was my husband sia... so funny la... haha... but my heart was still abit happy when ppl was saying this... haha... just kidding :P

hai... tonight was going to watch movie, Harry Potter with Yiling, her brother, yan and maomao... was very excited already... cos that's my favourite movie and story... then next will be twilight series... hahaha...

Off and Off... Feel good...

2009-07-14T11:51:00.002+08:00

Had taken quite a number of off this two weeks already... the feeling is so great and relaxing...

Yesterday i took my off again which made it straight shot of 4 relaxing days... Went to Westmall to meet Yiling yesterday to reserve iphone 3Gs... haha... it's like i've finally made up my mind on taking iphone after being psycho by yiling hubbi... haha... I hope i could get my iphone real soon...

After reservations, i went to my hubbi house... to help her wrap her Twilight series books... hmmm... no good... bully me... then after that, help her mummy to apply for turf club job... hope she can get the job soon...

in the evening, we went to JP together... then pig pig say he's coming to JP too, to buy favourite... brownies and also to see my hubbi... haha... at first, he ask me not to recognise him even if i saw him cos he don't want to let muy hubbi know he's here... he ask me pretend not to see him but end up in the end, the three of us go shopping together... haha...very cute sia... just like pig pig alot leh...

hmmm... my room is getting messy and messier... got to find some time to clean and clear the rubbish, dust and everything already... very headache when i look at it... my desk was also the same... sian... how come got so many things lying around sia...

think gotta plan and make a schedule and plans on when, where and when to pack everything already... hai...

A bitz sian..

2009-07-10T18:45:00.002+08:00

yesterday went to work and found that my work load had a bitz of increasing cos now i've got do data entries, prepare advertising promotions letters, fax the letters then confirm that the company do receive the documents... and most of all, they might extend my working periods again to September...

It's like my working performance was quite recognised by the company... haha... i feel it's not bad if i could get this kind of acknowledgements but on the other hand, i feel like getting some rest before i work in MBS...

hai... now i also don't know what to do now... should i continue to Sep or should i not sia... plus if i really were to extend to Sep, think i'm not going to give tuition anymore cos i really got no time for myself except for working, working and working...

think i've got to use this month tho think very carefully on what should i do already...

After work, had met a jiu at Jurong East and we go IMM together... Due to he strike 4D, he treat me eat pepper lurch, but hair dryer for me and a medical oil for my backache... plus he has given me some money to spent. haha...

This was the hair dryer that a-jiu bought

Today had apply leave to go and take rest... cos of the unpacking of goodie bags really makes me feel very tired and restless...

So had ask Vincent out to accompany me go everywhere i want to shop... he's really very nice to me... and really takes good care of me... i like the feeling of being together with him... but not when his girl called him that very moment cos i really feel very uneasy... which makes makes me feel i'm really very bad...

anywhere... had brought him to Singapore Flyer... but never take the ride cos never thought that we will go there... then after that he brought me to Marina Square shop shop then to Geylang eat durians... haha... not bad right??? at least i really did enjoy myself... haha...

tiring day again...

2009-07-08T20:55:00.002+08:00

hai... although today i don't have to wake up so early to report to work at the office but it's still a very tiring day for me as i need to take cab to tuas, our warehouse to unpack those goodie bags that we've packed the last time.

this morning, the taxi driver still drive me to the wrong place and we've like keep going circles in tuas... very stupid de lor... waste $19.70 for nothing plus waste time... don't like white cabby de, so stubborn and don't listen to our directions somemore sia when they already know that they don't know how to go... stu lor....

unpacking the goodie bags wasn't an easy task especially you've got like about 9 pallets to do... add up to maybe 1000+... but lucky unpack till half Jolynn had call someone down to collect the goodie bags to giveaway if not... till now this moment here i still haven reach home yet...

but my harvest today was really great cos i manage to bring back 2 large packets of huggy biscuit, 30 packets of clothes washing powder, 4 packets of lemon biscuits, 4 bottles of nonya satay sauce and 2 cartons of Go! milk...

Alot right??? never thought that working at NTUC Media could be so good and always have freebies to take home... haha...

yes... finally...

2009-07-07T17:09:00.004+08:00

yessssssssssssssssssss... yes... yes...yes... yes...yes... yes...yes... yes...yes... yes...yes... yes... finally MBS called me... hahahhahahahahahaha.... they had told me about the allowance that they will give us during the training, the monthly pay excluding the tips, the bonus, they will provide us with the meal, uniform and so on...

for further details, it is all stated in the Letter of Appointment... which they will call us again to tell us when to sign... and it's probably in the end of July... and our training will commence maybe in Oct...

Oh man... can't wait to start my career there already... so excited now sia... how??? hahaha...

waiting...

2009-07-07T16:43:00.002+08:00

Heard from shi jie today that MBS has given him a call in the afternoon regarding the pay that they will offer him... oh man so good... they had already given him a call and the offer... but i still haven receive any calls from MBS yet... very sad sia...

MBS has offered shi jie 2k sia... that was quite alot man... i don't think i could get that offer due to our post is different... i think maybe there's a bit difference, maybe 100-200 difference ba... but shi jie say that dealer and dealer inspector's pay are the same... don't know is it real or not... hmmm... i'm still waiting for MBS calls... i do hope that they could call me real real soon...

had a bit of chat with shi jie and he told me that his friend, yun xiang, a guy whom i also met before at o bar that time when i went to celebrate yiling's bdae... had ask me if i could go to o bar this sat to celebrate his bdae with shi jie and their friends...

hmmm... i feel very weird sia... cos it's like we don't really know each other that well and what for he invit me go sia... don't really feel like going leh cos first i don't really know him, second i don't like clubbing place, it's way too messy around and third i think pig pig will get angry if i go there again and somemore it's the guy that was hugging me when we dance at the dancefloor the last time...

hai... what to do now sia... i'm very headache already...

don't know why, i just hope pig pig can give me advise or call me not to go... but i guess his answer is see what i can do la... make your own decision...

surprise....

2009-07-06T14:09:00.003+08:00

early in the morning, while i was on the way to my office building, i was chatting with pig pig... it was like this morning i was just talking about my cousin Jia Da, like so long never saw him already, maybe he didn't work here anymore... then it's like lurch time i saw him sitting at the table in the basement... haha... horrible...

then it's like during lurch, had met Karen. she's also working at the same building as me but she's at the 25th storey...was like what an coincident sia... haha....

aunt lilian also treat me a tuna bread in the morning... haha... was quite delicious actually...

Jolynn, Hui Bing and Audrey had given me a bag today... i was like very surprise when i got the present cos i don't actually know what's going on and why they suddenly give me a present. until jolynn told me that it's actually to thanks me for helping them and i was about to leave soon so it's like a farewell gift and it's for me to carry it to IR to work... hehe... so touching sia...

had went for lurch with hui bing and audrey today also... it's like the first time ever to go lurch with them... though we did have lurch together before... haha... feeling is so good...

Last week...

2009-07-06T12:11:00.004+08:00

Last week... was a really free week for me...

Monday [29 Jun], went back to work after i had a tiring day at east coast... had brought all my achings to work... but luckily for me that i didn't have much things to do... so it was like i just simply take my own sweet time to finish my data entries for the day...

Not feeling very well that particular day already cos i'm way too exhausted after helping up the huge event... haha... but... i really did learn alot from the event... not bad actually... somemore still have freebies to take... hehe...

Tuesday [30 Jun], i've only left with a few entries to do... after finish everything, i will not have anything to do already... haha... finally had finished up every single bitz of the data entries... waiting for new ones to come in already...

by lurch time, i've actually completed everything and pig pig vincent, had also come to have lurch with me... it's like i was thinking of taking a half day leave also. cos 1st, i'm really not feeling that well, 2nd i really feel like going for a movie and lastly, i've got nothing to do in the office already...

but end up, i didn't take leave cos pig pig was like in hurry and sort of busy, so i don't want to disturb him by asking him to accompany me go watch movie. i don't like to rush when i hope i was enjoying myself...

anyway... aunt lilian had treat me a strawberry yogurt... and it was being freeze so it's actually taste like ice cream to me... not sour but sweet... i didn't dare to eat at first cos i thought it's sour but end up it's really acceptable to me...

accidentally, aunt lilian found out that i've got nothing to do cos i was playing com.... so she ask me to go find her if i got nothing to do... eventually, after having my yogurt treat, i went to look for her... so she ask everyone in the marketing side if there's anything for me to do or help... but end up don't have, therefore, they ask me go take a rest and they will have a small meeting of what to do with me...

so after the meeting, jolynn came find me and ask me to pack up and we'll go to the warehouse with jimmy, her boss. but halfway to the warehouse, they drop me at jurong east for me to take bus home. cos they actually purposely let me go off early as there's really nothing to give me do so there's no point of staying in the office and waste time. if they were to ask me home in the office, i believe my salary will be deducted... so... i feel that they are really good to me... haha...

wednesday [1 Jul]. the purpose of going to work is because i've got to hand in my invoice so that i can collect my salary... and then, i've got nothing to do already... so aunt lilian printed some datas for me to check... and it's like i don't even know how my time pass that day... haha...

I've even receive a small gift from one of the colleague whom i didn't actually know him well... he went to korea and japan for holiday so he has bought some small gift and tibits for everyone of us... so good... hehe...

i've even went to chat with hui bing while helping her in the last two working hours... haha...
was really fun la... first time to do things like that... no choice too free already....

my coughing was turning very bad... i got slight fever... hai... Plus... i've spent $150 on the chinese medicine sia... so expensive T_T

Thursday [2 Jul], off day.... wake up quite early cos mama kept calling to wake me up so that we could have lurch together... think bcos i was in fever and cough very badly... so i was like no strength.... very sleepy and tired... but super though cos i still went out with pig pig to watch transformer... really nice and exciting show... was like pig pig say i'm really like a boy boy cos when the new transformers came out, i just wow... haha... like a boy saw the toy car sort of feeling... haha.... after movie, we go shop around then went home early cos pig pig has got something to do...

he told me if tml free then we'll go out again if not, no choice...

Friday [3 Jul], off day again... cos aunt lilian ask me to take a couple of off days as there's isn't anything for me to do... so was like i've got my off again... i had ask mama not to wake me up today as i want to have enough of rest... end up i slept til 1 plus in the afternoon... maybe it's due to the medicine i've taken that's why i've got such a good sleep... haha...

had went to JP to eat pepperlurch then shopping till 4 plus... still not bad cos i've actually still bought something i like... haha... pig pig had went to bugis with his bro and friends... hmmm... so sad... never bring me along T_T

but he say next time will bring me there to shop cos there's a new opened shopping centre there... hopefully the next time that he said won't be too long... haha...

Saturday [4 Jul], for my goodness, i'm still able to wake up at 7.30am to bring maomao to Henry Park Primary School to take his DSA test... cos i've slept only at 3.30am in the morning due to watching some moives online -_-'''

Was like very tired and boring... i've waited at Ghim Moh for about to 3hrs... and i was like expecting pig pig to call me lor... end up, so disappointing... had called a-jiu to chat with him... if not, i sure will be bored to death... haha....

after maomao's test, we went to clementi to eat long john before we headed back home... it was then pig pig called and it was only then he remembered that i was at ghim moh the whole morning... sian... so disappointing...

had sleep till 4pm after we reach home... was like very rush cos we still got to attend Mei Feng's 21 birthday party... rush till like don't know what cos we are meeting xiao yi 4 pm at bukit batok mrt station... it's like lucky xiao yi did call to check if we are out already... if not... i don't dare to say... haha...

sunday [5 Jul], yan's going to redang island tonight... so it's like for the next few days, maomao and me will be conquering the bed room... whahaha....

another tired but very fun day...

2009-06-28T21:55:00.005+08:00

had went to East Coast park, Big splash as my company was holding an event over there which they need more manpower and so Jolynn had ask me down too...

It's really a very big event today as we are giving out the goodie bags that we had pack two days ago... but end up, it was like the people that purchased the lucky draw tickets are actually not very interested in collecting the goodie bags... therefore in the end, we had loads of leftovers... so... my colleague had all brought some back including me... haha... so good, got freebies to take back...

spongebob square pants and patrick was there too... bahahaha... they are really cute lor... had taken their pics too... but too bad was, don't have the chance to take with them... T_T

the orchestra that was invited to play there was really bravo... they had followed every single beat that those tv games we use to play, they can like just simply play their musics out... really clever...

anyway... was really feeling tired today also cos i've sweat alot today too... it's like this few days, i was sweating more than usual and if i didn't slim down, i really had nothing to say lor... haha...

loads of goodie bags... big walk...

giving away goodie bags...

Spongebob & Patrick
freebies ^.^

Tiring day...

2009-06-27T14:44:00.004+08:00

yesterday had wake up 7.30am cos i don't have to report to office early but report to their warehouse... however... i received Jolynn's sms early in the morning to ask me to get up cos she will come to fetch me 8.30am at lakeside mrt station to the warehouse...

therefore... i've got no choice but to wake up and get changed... who knows... Jolynn sms me again at 8am telling me that she will be arriving in say 10mins time sia... i was so gan jio that i quickly take my belongings and rush out of the house...

after my colleague come and fetch me, we went to fetch the 20 part timers at Jurong East, then to the warehouse... when we reach the warehouse, the first time we need to do was to exchange our ic for the visitor pass... after that, we had to proceed to the place where we need to brief the part timers on how and what to pack inside the goodie bags...

it was like we got to pack about 1600 blue goodie bags and 1400 orange goodie bags... end up, by 5pm, we only manage to pack up to 1300 bags for each colour... really tiring... and it's extremely warm inside the warehouse plus it's absolutely very dirty and dusty that my both hands and legs are really dirty...

when i reach home, i was like suddenly become very old that my whole body was aching everywhere... haha... and i slept very early last night cos i'm really tired after the packing and sweating in the warehouse...

Boring...

2009-06-25T14:37:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling very boring right now... hai... i really got nothing much to do already... though i've still got some of the entries i cn key in to my pc but i don't want cos if i finish it. it means that i really got nothing to do in the office already... so i decided to save some of them for the next day...

had been eating tom yam cup noodle for this two days... hai... really got nothing to eat sia... gets really boring what to eat for lurch cos it's like there's too many choices to choose till you don't know what to eat...

yeah... still got another 17 mins or so... i will be out of the office le... cos my colleague will be bringing me to the warehouse to do something... heard from her that the warehouse is very very dirty... -_-''' don't know can tahan anot...

xiao yi had msg me yesterday asking me if i can change jordan's tuition to every week anot... so that in this way, jordan will be able to ask me questions every week instead of every alternate week...

these few days don't know why, i wasn't able to contact my the other student... weird thing that how come she never contact me too... wonder what's wrong with her...

past few days summaries...

2009-06-24T20:36:00.003+08:00

21 Jun [Sunday], it's father's days... had been a very happy day all along until dinner time cos we got to find place to have our dinner... i strongly feel that my mum was being very ridiculous for throwing tempers... i was really very pissed off by her attitude... she knows that my dad can't recognise route at night time, just because my dad can't be able to find the place where he actually want to bring us, my mom just start to yell at him and want to go home to eat maggie mee instead...

really couldn't believe it lor... i was so irritated until i suggest why not we come back to the hawker near our house to eat... surrender to my mom's nonsense lor... hai...

22 Jun [Monday], nothing much happen except that i went to find a-jiu after work... and have dinner with him... but i was really sleepy that day... don't know what happen... like no matter how much sleeping hours you have, you can never have enough...

23 Jun [Tuesday], very sleepy again... fall asleep during work cos nothing much to do already... finished most of my job task already... weird thing was we were talking about religious during lurch time... there's this uncle they call him Mr. Ho was like very interested to tell me alot on buddhism... interesting huh...

I then only found out that actually donations made from television charity programmes are actually all big liars... all the donations made, only 20% of it was really donated the rest was to be paid to all celebrities and facilities... like they aren't really that helpful actually isn't it?

hai... lucky... i didn't made any donations anymore... i've only made the 6 donations years back... think that will be the first and the last time i will do that cos you can't trust anyone... what i will do was if i were to do charity, i would rather buy loads of useful stuff to donate than to make money donations through charity outside...

hmmm... had accidentally raise my voice at my mom last night due to money case again... was like i really don't understand, is it that she haven see money before or is she really in need of money?

everyday single day... all that i've heard her talking to me was money, money and money... nothing other than money... so... it was like i'm really irritated by her till i accidentally raised my voice at her... i really don't like to talk to her and i doubt that she also don't like to talk to me too... cos we could hardly got anything to talk about...

sleepy and headaching week...

2009-06-24T14:39:00.001+08:00

Have been having headache since sunday till today already. really pain sia... don't know what had happen...

this whole week i've been slacking in the office, secretly taking some nap, listening to songs, playing facebook and reading storybook... haha... nice life you might say... but no choice... i've already finish all the task given to me... that's why till now, nobody came and scolded me or so... cos they all know... so what we have to do is wait for new contest coupon to be send in, so that i can key in again...

and yes to... tml jolynn, one of my marketing colleague, is taking me out to their warehouse, so that i won't get bored staying in the office... which aunt lilian also agreed to it... haha... finally... i can be out of the office...

bo bian... do things fast is like that de la... haha... -_-'''

free free free....

2009-06-20T23:20:00.003+08:00

for this whole week, i've been receiving free drinks and cakes from coffeebean due to some error they have made... actually, i've order mini muffins to treat my colleagues last friday... but end up, they have made a mistake in the collections date and that i've got to came back on friday to collect the muffins...

it's because the guy that had made a mistake feels that he has to do something to amend his mistakes, so he say that he will give me a slice or two pieces of cake as a compliment... but i don't think i want cos i don't feel like eating cakes that day... but because he insisted, i've got no choice but to take to take from him... i actually thought it's like only a piece or two, which i think i still can share with my colleague but end up, he has given me four pieces of the cake, which i've got no choice but to take home and share it with papa, mama and yan...

another case was the other guy who serve me on wed as well as on fri, had actually want to joke with me that my muffins still haven arrive but who knows it's real. so, on fri, he was actually feel so sorry about joking with me that day, and he treat a cup of his favourite tea... haha... funny right??? make me feel so embarrass this week, kept getting freebies from coffeebean...

but frankly speaking i went to so many coffeebean, this one was the most best i've ever went to... not because i've freebies, but it's because they are really friendly... that's why i like to go there...

it's you want to know what cakes i've got, you can actually go to my food bloogies to see...

had went to funeral on wed night too... was quite sad that recently i kept hearing that ppl had died or get ill... it's like life are actually just as simple... it's like a piece of paper... when the piece of paper was new, it's healthy. you need to paint/coloured it to make it interesting. when you wet/tear it, it still to spoil and gets unhealthy... and finally, the piece of paper can't contain any more of the colours, tearing or wetting, it will be time for you to throw it away which means die....

hai... think don't say anymore of these sad things anymore... hmmm... yesterday went to holland turf club to collect my pay slip... had saw the new girl there... and some old customers... eventually, some of them didn't know that i've already quit the job and ask me why so long never go there to work... haha...

juan was so happy to see me that she can't resist to stop talking to me and let me go... haha... cute sia... anyway... went to jp to meet yan after that... we have our dinner there and guess what... we saw san yi there... so... we join them to go shopping... shop till quite late actually... haha... we also went to mcdonald to drink coffee and eat cakes too...[same here... food bloggies]

as for today... finally met yiling already... plus the best of all, had finally met sin yee... it's like i don't even know when was the last time that i've saw her... almost can't remember how she looks like already... haha...

had also went jp to do shopping again today... haha... now was like very tired and sleepy already... hai... spend too much this month already... think next month got to save a little more...

oh... by the way... tommorrow is father's day... got to wake up early to go out celebrate father's day... hmmm.... wonder where are we going...

argh... still thinking of what to buy for vincent's birthday also... which was next month July 13... headache sia...

kinda disappointing...

2009-06-17T17:08:00.003+08:00

had went to suntec yesterday for MBS, end up it's actually to take the letter of intent given by them... was actually kinda disappointing cos we are all actually haven been confirm due to some government policy.

we have to apply for dealing and a special license given by the government before we can start work at the casino... the main thing for this wasto check our background to see if it's clean or not... and to ensure that we can't do any black laundry in the future cos they will have all our information about our job salary and how much assets do we own.

hai... thought i've been confirm end up like being cheated kind of feeling... but frankly speaking, i can feel that MBS was actually really keen to employ us, but the only main thing was whether government now allow them to employ us anot...

So scare and sad now... hope everything can pass safely... hehe... like i've done something bad...

After going to suntec, had met Vincent at marina square. he promised to take me out so he came to find me at marina... haha... he actually thought that i stll haven done with my things but actually i already get everything done after he has called me. so i went to marina to find me... it's weird that don't know why i can feel that he's actually near the starbucks somewhere... therefore i went up to find him and indeed he was there looking around while waiting for me... hehe... feel so clever... we went to drink a cup of coffee then go to watch a football match after that... funny, it's the first time that i actually finished watching the whole match... and was like he won the betting too... haha....

So nervous la...

2009-06-16T12:24:00.002+08:00

don't know why suddenly feel so nervous and excited already... maybe it's bcos it's about time for me to go off to suntec, and sign my contract already... haha...

still got around 30 more mins... and i'm knocking off cos i've apply for a half day noon leave from my superior...

kinda excited here though i'm now very sleepy and going to doze off very soon...

wonder if there's loads of ppl at the suntec theatre anot... cos i'm going there abit early so that i can avoid the crowd and waiting time... must learn to be clever already cos that day went for interview has like waited for 2-3 hours... very long... make me nervous till i don't even know what to say... so today must get ready for everything and i really hope my mind is all clear forme to think, so that the things i wanted to ask, it's all ready in mind...

wonder what is it like over there? and what will they offer me... haha...

Monday Bluez -_-...

2009-06-15T17:03:00.003+08:00

today i've got a very bad monday blue... no mood to work or even do anything... juz feel very sleepy and tired... wish to stay home to sleep...

I didn't even went out for lurch but go and buy some drinks and eat cup noodles back in my office...

tired... i hope time fly pass real quick now... so i can quickly go home...

Tomorrow is getting near too... hmmm... it's the day i've been waiting for, to sign contract day... the contract with Marina Bay Sands... already apply a half day leave for aunt lilian... ohhh... gosh... can't wait for the time to come... hehe...

by the way, today is papa's 46 birthday... think 've already know what gift to give him and that's pay for his mobile boardband bills... guess this present will be the most wonderful and ideal one... haha... anyway... HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!!!

Hmmm...

2009-06-14T21:26:00.004+08:00

Friday [12 Jun] has met Yan to go PC show at suntec to look for a netbook for myself... It's really crowded at Suntec cos maybe the pc sold there was really cheap ba...

I end up spend about 800 plus bucks there to buy a lenovo netbook, microsoft office and MP3. I've also went to Marina Square to buy 2 bag, one big bag and a small pouch. haha... was like spend quite a huge amount of money... Argh... going to be very poor already... sad...

Saturday [13 Jun] has went to give tuition from 12 pm till 6.30 pm. After tuition, went to JP to meet up with Qiu Hui, Alicia, Karen and Yewen. It's like a very long time that i've last see all of them already. really change alot... I've also bought 4 dresses and a pair of shoes too... like i spend 180 bucks on these few items lor... lol...

We have our dinner at Crystal Jade then to Party World at Clementi... End up the whole night i spend another 50 bucks... It's lucky for me that my god-daddy came to fetch me so i don't have to spend another cent to take transport home... haha...

today [14 Jun], had went to suntec pc show again... but this time was with papa, mama, yan and maomao... this time round was much more crowded than friday's crowded. plus... the netbook that i've bought was like much more cheaper... wow... heart pain leh... spend so much.... T_T

papa also bought the same type of netbook as mine but his was the newest version and was cheaper, faster, and lighter... sian...

But nevermind... at least i like the netbook i've bought... haha...

hmmm... so tired and sleepy... think i've got to rest early, tomorrow have to do ironing after i came back from work...

so sleepy already...

2009-06-11T17:12:00.002+08:00

Finally it's second last working day of the week... got very sleepy and tired now...

yesterday after hearing my great news, got way over excited and high till in the end i was really tired and sleepy that i almost dozed off during working time... hehe...

Nevertheless... had heard that Shi Jie has finally receive MBS call and they offer him dealer inspector post [bu hu hu... T_T why i don't get that post??? so sad]. so happy for him... but sad for me la... cos i need to work hard there to promote to that post... -_-''' hehe... nevermind... as long as i can get my job there will do... be careful with handling everything, i believe they will still promote me sooner or later de... jia you!!!

today was the first day of the PC show, i believe it's sure to be very crowded... hai... can go only tml le cos tonight still have to give tuition... hope that i could get my ideal type of netbook... then also look out for hot stuff like hp... mp3... etc... haha...

hmmm... today receive 15 Burger King coupon from Jolynn... but guess too many le... anyone interested??? haha... think bring home see who want...

going to finish my macau contest entries... but my working place was like damn messy lor...got so many boxes around me... -_-'''

Vincent finally came to find me and have lurch together. it's like almost a week that i haven been seeing him lor... sian... actually... talk about this relationship things, i finally figured out already... for the past few days, i thought the main reason that i feel so down and unhappy was the relationship between vincent and me... but after i receive sands call yesterday, i just know that, my sadness was not from there but the worries that whether sands will employ me or not...

when sands called, all my sadness was like blink... disappeared... no matter vincent was by my side or not, i just feel so contented... i just knew that it wasn't the relationship i want to chase now but the career i want to get... think relationship thing was not as important to as i thought it is, thought i really hope that i could have it... so... i need to concentrate on my career now... and don't let a second of it fly pass... JIA YOU !!!

yes!!!!

2009-06-10T12:24:00.003+08:00

Oh Yes!!! Sands called me le.... They've offered me the position for dealer... Argh.... So happy... and way excited...

Next Tues will go down to sign the contract already... haha... so happy can't wait to start work...

waiting for so long finally i got it... think i got to start practising my chip skills and revising my game rules already...

JIA YOU !!!!

hope i can also receive sands call...

2009-06-10T11:44:00.002+08:00

My goodness.... i've just receive a call from shi jie saying that marie and debbie had receive sands call and will go down to sign contract next week already...

i'm now so scare already... i was shivering now, scare that they won't call me... my god... how??? what am i suppose to do now??? i so much nervious and scare than i was at the interview...

i really hope that they will call me asap to tell me that i'm shortlisted... pray harder....

Not Feeling very good ever since friday T_T

2009-06-09T14:25:00.002+08:00

It has been the fourth day after my interview on Friday. I was really very upset about my performance... I really don't even know if i did my best or not... the most important thing was i'm really scare that i won't be shortlisted...

My friends here at NTUC Media was also quite concern about how my interview goes... i'm really upset till i don't even know how to tell them about the interview but i did really badly... i was now wondering everyday when will they contact me and tell me that i'm shortlisted... i pray hard everyday, every hour, every minute and every second...

Aunt Lilian told me not to worry cos she feels that i answer the questions in a really good manner and it can show that how i handle nasty players... Vincent also said that i really had done very well and tell me not to worry so much... but my heart was beating fast and i really can't help not to worry... headache sia...

another thing that makes me feel not good was the relations between vincent and me... think i might be too late to give up on him le... think i've accidently fall for him really deeply that now, when i think of him or his girl, i will feel heart pain... i've hold onto his hand very tightly that specific day... while holding his hands, i was thinking, how long can i still hold onto his hands?

I'm afraid of losing him... i'm scare he will no longer by my side... i'm worry that he won't call again... i'm afraid that i won't be able to see him again... My heart sinks when i think of him, when he didn't call me, even when he's sad or worry about his own problems... I can't stop myself to miss and think of him everyday...

i don't know why i've become like this... it's like really a very dangerous and forgiving thing to do. i was like becoming very weird and seriously disgusting...

Juan told me, i might as well just handsomely let go of this relationship just forget about everything... don't wait till i will get hurt even more... I also know about letting go but the problem is say was easier than do... hai...

Now i'm really very heartaching...

Boy? Or Girl?

2009-06-07T14:15:00.004+08:00

yesterday went to xiao yi's house to give tuition. but before we start tuition, i was in xiao yi's room looking thru her photos taken in the past.

then what surprise me was my picture when i still a very small kid. when i look at my picture i was like, my goodness am i a boy or a girl? i look so weird in the small dress i wore and i look so cool and cute when i dress like a boy, somemore one of the pictures i was holding on to the sunglasses and was preparing to wear it... haha... very funny...

wearing sunglasses

-_-???
Handsome right?
Cute ^.^
Weird in dress...

Cute isn't it? Wondering am i a boy or a girl? haha...

can make it or not?

2009-06-07T13:56:00.002+08:00

Friday [5 Jun] had went to E2i for interview... indeed there's really alot of ppl there waiting for interview... lucky i didn't go late if not will sure to wait for a very long time.

in this interview, we are all tested with the colourblindness and maths calculations... Think i was way too nervous at first when we are called to a room for the maths exam that i'm unable to calculate all those easy questions... then everything was written wrongly... hai yo... really can't be too nervous de...

then after the exams, we are ask to wait for our turn for the verbal interview. think i will flung in this interview cos i don't even know exactly what i want to say and questions asked are like no link to the casino job... i'm now very worry here... i don't know if i can make it thru the interview and got the job anot...

i really hope that i can get the job... please god bless me hard...

Marie had decided to join sentosa already. she has already sign the contract with them and will be flying to philippines for training on 28 Aug. was like so envious that she make it thru the interview and don't have to worry or even think so much already. not like me, still have to worry here... haha...

anyway... think qiu hui say was right, i've already gone for the interview so, try not to think so much and continue to move on.... Jia You!!!

Headache...

2009-06-03T18:44:00.002+08:00

Had went to company's lurch yesterday. and then a movie from my company too... but provided half day paid being deducted which they didn't told me about it at first. damn it right??? got a huge feeling of kana cheated... sian lor...

anyway... don't wish to talk about it anymore... i will be flaming if that will happen again...

wasn't feeling very well since monday, end up yesterday i really have fever while waiting for the movie to start. Vincent had also came at last after a long wondering if he wants to come accompany me to watch the movie or not.

thought i'm going to watch the show on my own, and if that really happens, it will sure to be my first and my last time to watch it alone. if it hasn't vincent promised to accompany me to watch the show, guess he won't appear in front of me ba...

that's what i say, i never like promises. it's just a verbal care not the kind of care and concern that come out thru your heart. just think about it, he actually has something very important to do but he just leave it aside cos he say that he has already promise me that he will accompany me but then if he didn't come, he will feel very bad about it.

this makes me feel that he just might as well don't come... watch movie alone won't kill me, isn't it??? he appears just bcos he has promise which means he didn't actually wanted to watch it isn't it? so i feel that he can just forget it and don't come, cos after the show, he has to rush back again.

this is not what i want... especially it's when i'm sick and not feeling very well. rushing here and there will just make me feel very uncomfortable, which he didn't notice. think the type of care i want, he won't be able to give me. think we aren't suitable for each other, think i'm still unable to really handle relationships very well yet. think the two of us should end here already.

i'm tired of everything... feel so no strength, not even a goal or aim to continue the path in life. sometimes, i really feel very tired of living here in this kind of place. i really feel like leaving this place... to another place where i feel lively, suitable, peace and not stressful... think this kind of place is call paradise ba...

anyway, i've took leave today cos i'm still having fever today and not feeling very well too. i dare not go clinic cos of H1N1... hai... have to cure myself already... hope my illness will recover by friday cos i've got an interview... i must show the best of me there cos the job was really important to me... Jia You!!!

Back to original...

2009-06-01T15:23:00.010+08:00

Finally busy week is over... Last friday had also stay in office till 8pm by myself... really boring... perhaps it's bcos of the last day of collection so there isn't alot of ppl came down to collect the tickets... so i was here all alone till 8pm...

Saturday [30 May], actually wanted to sleep till 11am or 12pm but end up i still wake up at about 9 plus to 10am... i was unable to get my sleep after 7 hours of resting already. think it's either i'm getting old or i've already got use to have 7 hours of sleep a day.

My godfather from turf club had actually came and take me out for a drink in midnight... don't know why i was like sort of very daring and that i dare to go and meet him... weird sia...

Had meet with xiao yi 3pm at raffles mrt station... but before that, a-jiu, maomao and i had went to IMM shopping cos i actually wanted to change my Dzi beads string... Yan had also meet us there so we can eat some snacks there before we meet xiao yi.

After meeting xiao yi, we went to Singapore River cos we need to change our flyer tickets there. Actually wanted to see Ben 10 de but too bad no choice of seeing him... haha... After scrolling awhile at the event held by my company, the seven of us had walk to the flyer from singapore river... had enjoy chatting thruout the whole journey and we took quite a number of photos... most of all, if it hasn't been that we walk to the flyer, i didn't know that actually sands hotel had actually half built with the glass already.

After the ride, we went to Marina Sqaure to have our dinner then go shopping for awhile... it's really the most tiring day ever...

Sunday [31 May], was my last day working at turf club. don't know why the feeling was so weird, like going to cry out very soon... i was wondering since morning if vincent will come down anot. but after waiting throughout the whole race, i see none of his shadow.

Juan was acting weird also. she doesn't seems to be like her normal self. Gana, still the same like to bully me. he says that he hopes to transfer out to work at the casino as a cisco but guess it's impossible cos it's difficult to transfer out if you are working at the jail already.

Customers who knows that it's the last day for me, came to ask me why. there's even one of them ask me if i will still go and visit or not. so i say yes and he gave me his no. so that if i go back. i could give him a call.

my godfather didn't ask me anything, he only heard that everyone came asking me why i'm quiting already. hmmm.... quite miss everybody de.

today, it's the first day of my normal life again. but guess i'm not feeling very well today cos my flu was like abit serious than before. Vincent had suddenly come find me for lurch. already a week plus that we haven see each other. wondering if i do miss him?

but guess he's busy cos mon, toto... he always get alot of phone calls...

Finally...

2009-05-29T14:43:00.002+08:00

x_x Finally... today is the last day of the family day out tickets giveaway... it's been a very very tiring week for me already... and it was like i feel so stress up about phone ringing... cos once the phone ring, it means that i'm going out of my office to giveout tickets then come back it again...

my goodness... i've got to work from 8.30am to 8pm everyday this week to do all these giveaway tickets... tired sia... @_@

actually it's really a good learning place here at NTUC Media cos i've got to learn how to handle stuff like communicating thru phone calls and directly to the person...then you will also learn how to answer questions in the right way and most of all improving my english... haha...

And also, i can also learn how to organise an event by watching and helping the staff doing it. Really... what i can say is, this is a good learning ground... glad that i'm here so at least next time when i work in IR i've got some experience just like how i gain my experience in turf club...

hmmm... talking about turf club, today was actually my 2nd last day of work there. but i've got to apply leave from them cos i'm working till 8pm today at NTUC Media... so was like very sian lor as i'm actually thinking cos treating my friends there to eat some mini bites but turn out too bad no chance... so this Sunday will be my last day at turf club already...

Don't know why suddenly got the feeling of unbear to leave. think it's bcos of my friends that i've made there... even vincent was like abit sad that i will no longer work there cos he won't be able to see me as and when he wanted already.

What's more importantly is, everything will be different already. guess this way i can avoid to see him more and then my feelings for him will fade ba... if not, i really feel bad for his girlfriend cos the both of us are like way too much... I don't want to be the third party, i hope to find someone that really be true to me, precious me and dote me alot than anybody... guess by quiting will still do some changes in life...

plus... once i work in the IR, i can be more concentrating rather than to have someone around me which makes my mood, mind and heart so unstable... i hope to lead a really stable life for now, and earn as much money as i could so that i could have a better future...

Yeah...

2009-05-27T17:53:00.004+08:00

Oh... my gosh... Marina Bay Sands just called me... they call me to go for an interview next friday, 10.30am at e2i... Not very sure why they are under in e2i but that doesn't matter... cos what matters me was I really hope that they will recruit me... haha...

Hmmm... i should pray hard now and have enough rest so that i can get ready for everything that's going to shoot on my face...

JIA YOU!!!

Tired... @_@

2009-05-27T17:51:00.003+08:00

Starting from monday I've been working like mad... walk in and out of the office very often due to some giveaway tickets... Plus... everyday work from 8.30 am to 8 pm... It's like really damn tiring especially my poor leg... pain till i really don't know how to describe somemore plus my whole body from top to toe was like tearing apart very soon... hope to find some rest now sia...

this morning was like got the feeling of crying to work lor... cos i totally got no strength to even get up... the worst part of all is my daily exercise, climbing stairs... shit... no strength to climb up also -_-''' *faint*

don't know why also, this few days, everyday got ppl to help me buy takeaway food... i really got no time to even go for lurch sia... sian...

hai... i really hope this week can fly pass more quickly so that i can resume back to my 'normal life' next week...

one more week...

2009-05-23T23:28:00.006+08:00

Yesterday [22 may], had attend our grandaunt's daughter's wedding. Yan and I had meet at Raffles Place Mrt so that we can go there earlier to shop... But end up we only shop for a very short while... as we are very hungry... and anyway, it's about time for us to go to Goodwood Park where the wedding dinner was held...

The dining place was like wow... so absolutely grand... so shock about it... plus their serving was also wow... great... their dish was really tasty... especially their dessert...

next would be one of my aunt... she really always give surprises to everyone... this time, she won't miss it too... the clothes she wore was like... don't know how to describe... haha... let you decide how you feel ba...

anyway... the wedding was actually a little boring cos maybe it's bcos we don't know anyone there except our relatives ba...

Okay... Below are some of the pictures taken... as for the food... it will be at my food bloggies...

gift...

Oh my...

2009-05-18T16:18:00.003+08:00

yesterday was having fun at holland cos it's SIA cup race and many customers just come buy and go as there's live telecast on tv last night at channel news asia i think... so it's like quite empty inside...

so... i was chatting with the cisco[gana] when i was really free... i can feel that he's quite a friendly but playful person thru chatting compared to another cisco[vic] i've met... but yesterday was still quite a busy day for me cos the place was like full of ppl... very tired at the end of the day...

i've also submited my resignation letter to wendy and had done with the clearance with her too... aunt siew lee and aunt lay eng also asked me about how i feel as i was leaving them soon... to be frank, was quite unbearable actually... cos was like we've work together for 4 mths, it's not very long but it's neither short too... for this 4 mths, i've really learn alot from them and from the customers. i've learn to endure more too and control more and more of my temper... i got to admit that i do really have great patience in doing everything that's not only agreed by my school teachers but my supervisor too... haha... i've also made alot of friends at turf club too and was like a very trustworthy person towards alot of customers...

on the other hand, i was really being well taken care of from all the aunties working there as well as the customers... tell you a little secret, every race day that i've work, i will always got loads of free drinks to drink cos alot of uncles treat me... haha... so was like very thankful to them... and there's this uncle who teaches me loads of things too really very thankful to his advises and my god-father... hehe... who spoken up for me when i was kana scolding from being helpful @_@

my goodness today woke up with no voice in the morning... think i'm sick already... cos i already feel very cold from the moment i was awake... got cold and cough... i hope i could better soon...

today got new task to do... keying in undraws lucky draws... haha... nothing different actually... just that the entries i do before was all those being draw already but this one not yet...

sian... feel like going for a long vocation...

so sian but it's like finally...

2009-05-17T13:55:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i finally told my turf club supervisor that i'm resigning already... it's like i've finally out down a really huge rock or something that i've been carrying it on my shoulder for a very long time... finally feel relax abit...

when i told my friends there about Marina sands had contacted me, they were all very excited about it and say that they will all go there to look for me... haha... but i guess they want to go there gamble more than look for me... hehe...

anywhere got to hand it my resignation letter today and i was like feeling quite nervous sia... like i don't know what to say and was wondering if that stupid irritatting manager will be here today or not... i really hope she better don't come cos i don't wanna see her at all... cos she will spoil my mood...

hmmm... just heard from yan this morning that actually marina sands had contacted her too but she didn't receive the call... but that's not the most curious question that i want to find out but why is it she was contacted thru calls but not sms??? was it bcos i'm the confirm one so i only receive sms or was it bcos they want to let me know that i need to go for interview??? i was so curious about it... but anyway... i just hope that they will quickly hire me... can't wait already... [was like a gambler right??? haha...]

hmmm... tml got to work at NTUC... But main problem now is i've already completed all the task that was given... and i left with nothing to do except for rotting in the office... but somehow... i've a feeling that tml there will be alot of work for me to do... headache... somemore today turf cub will end late till 9.30pm... my gosh will sure to reach home very late... think i need to try to sleep earlier today... cos i don't want to report work late tml...

Oh yes....

2009-05-16T11:07:00.002+08:00

Hip Hip Hooray... yesterday marina bay sands finally msg me telling me that i'm shortlisted and will call me again to confirm that date and time for an interview... what i've got to do now is to prepare my interview and present the best of me there.... can't disappoint myself there...

now i'm so looking forward to the interview sia... haha... can't wait to work there already. my god... i'm so excited now... my friends are also very excited too ... haha...

however... on the other side, yesterday i feel very unhappy too... the reason is bcos of vincent... i was like finally understand why xi and him don't want to take pic with me already and the world's most stupid person still did the same mistake in her relationship again...

i suddenly feel very hurt sia... i really don't know how to face my future relationship already. it's like a totally bullshit thing and it's really sucks, digusting... i really hate it... especially guys... totally can't trust them and believe every single word that they say... it's all lie...

was it lucky or???

2009-05-13T15:40:00.002+08:00

Today had try to reach office early but still reach at 9am... had met Jolynn at the lobby downstairs but at the time she was talking to another person... when we reach the 14th floor, just before i enter the office, Jolynn say she have something for me to do... and call me to go find her the moment i settled down...

So good lor... everytime the things that she wants me to do will always keep me awake... Just when i thought i've got nothing to do after finish helping her, she called again and ask me to help her to call subscribers that send in their subscription forms late to see if they want to continue with the payment even if there isn't any gifts for them... end up my sales wasn't bad at all... which... not only surprise myself but Jolynn too cos all of the subscribers wanted to proceed with the purchase, two can't get thru and one doesn't want to proceed... hehe...

weird too today cos aunt lilian had given me a bracelet, sam [marketing guy] bought me a lurch, mike give me two chocolates that he brought back from New Zealand and jasmine give me preserved peach to eat...

was like what vincent say??? they strike toto or 4d? haha...

Half day rest???

2009-05-13T15:10:00.002+08:00

had taken a half day off yesterday... was it a rest or was it a torture???

I specially taken a half day off and had went shopping with Juan [a china lady i've met at turf club]. I took her to Boon Lay to buy hp... end up she bought an identical phone as mine except that her phone was blue with light blue side but mine is white with red side... quite nice and was the colour that i want to buy at first...

after shopping at Boon Lay, we went to Jurong Point to shop... cos i know she can't stand the heat outside as her face was all red when it's too warm...

So... i took my lurch at the burger king... ate too full already... and we chat for quite a very long time at the bk... then we went to skin food to purchase some skin product, bag shops to buy bag and she had got a member but she has given it to me and i went to buy a dress at pur pur... plus a waterbottle from NTUC...

After a long day of shopping, i found that it was sort of tiring... cos when i reach home i just fell asleep after a few mins of resting...

however, i can't just rest yet cos i've got to eat dinner then bring mao mao to market so that i could withdraw money to pay his fees... hai... very tired...

Angry...

2009-05-11T15:06:00.002+08:00

I'm very angry today lor... early in the morning got scolding... came in to the office 10 mins late this few days... don't even know what happen to me sia... but this one i admit it's my fault la... butthe main thing i'm angry about was my lurch time lo... they say i came in really very late and want to deduct my salary sia... sianz la....

it wasn't as what they think lor... cos i everytime go for late lurch then naturally i will came in late isn't it??? most importantly... last week they all say i came in very late after lurch which is wasn't true lor... i came in damn early cos i didn't go for lurch just take a short scroll downstair then came up already... after that, i wasn't at my desk doing things as i'm being called to the marketing side to help up... in between i went to my desk to drink water and put my stuff. I think it's during that time they all thought i came in late ba... very sian and upset about it lo...

hai... now i work until like very no mood... don't know when then i can help my rest... every day work, from mon to sun, from morning to night... getting tired already... my goodness think i got to get one day or one week or one month to go relax myself... and get enough of my sleep... feel so sleepy and aching now...

Sianz...

2009-05-11T12:22:00.002+08:00

8 May [Friday], saw a new CSA at holland turf club... feel quite unbalance at first about how come a young girl can get that post but not me... but end up i still convinced myself, telling myself that my post is better than the CSA cos i can get to make more friends outside the window, go home early and also can do nothing just stand near the machine and help customers in need otherwise i can just talk to the customers....

anyway... i don't know should i feel happy or should i feel sad... it's like i'm about to leave turf club soon... and i was like... i don't know how to express that feeling inside me... was like a bit lost... sianz...

9 May [Saturday], it's my last day to see Jolene at holland turf club... was so sad she has been transfered to bedok... Aunt florence was the next to leave holland and transfer to bedok too... it's like suddenly missing two very good friends there and happy atmosphere just 'blink' disappear... Jolene has given me a dark chocolate as a farewell gift...

Aunt Florence and aunt siew lee also did ask me when i'm leaving too... cos there's a new CRO coming in soon i think... Aunt siew lee say why not just continue to work at holland for the time being until Marina Sands open... it was then i was so confused about whether i should leave NTUC or should i leave Holland Turf Club... my god...

Now... i can't make up my mind already... die la... who can help me sia???

had met Vincent after i went shopping with a-jiu at IMM... he was damn funny lor... cos i tease him about he can look at a new pretty young lady at holland already... then he was like very angry la... saying that he don't even go to the counter what for telling him all this... haha... very fun to tease him la... silly guy... but i was abit worry about him cos every Chu yi and shi wu, he looks like very weak sia...

10 May [Sunday], it's mother's day today... had given aunt florence, angeline, annie, siew lee, lee kieng, juan and one more don't know what her name is... a mother's day gift... actually i only prepare the gift for aunt florence, angeline, annie, juan and siew lee... but since i was in a good mood, everyone got a gift except that i don't know that there's a new comer... i'm so happy that they are all so happy and like the small gift so much that aunt florence just can't wait to hang it on her hp... haha...

had taken mama to eat dinner at Choa Chu Kang... was actually quite angry with papa for not coming to fetch me but think for awhile, Vincent was right, it's mother's day and what's the point of being so angry and present an angry face to them while we are having dinner...

it was quite a nice dinner though it's like quite ex... and most importantly was we should all enjoy the dinner...

Soooo happy for maomao...

2009-05-06T17:09:00.003+08:00

I'm soooo happy and feel proud on my little xiao maomao... cos he got a bronze for the Asia Pacific Mathematical Olympiad for Primary Schools 2009 (APMOPS 2009).

It was organised by Hwa Chong Institution and there will be two rounds to the competition.The First Round competition will be held at various centres across the Asia-Pacific region. The competition for Singapore schools, known as the Singapore Mathematical Olympiad for Primary Schools (SMOPS) will be held on Saturday 25th April 2009 at the school's campus.

Students who are among the top 10% or the top 200 participants, whichever is lower in the SMOPS will be invited to the Invitation Round and Prize Presentation Ceremony to be held on Saturday 30th May 2009 at the school's campus.

So... i was wondering if he's able to make it to the second round... hehe...

wow... maomao it's so great of you... I'm very proud of you...so JIA YOU!!!

Result:
http://www.hci.sg/aphelion/apmops/SMOPS%2009%20Awards%20(for%20Webpage).xls

But still...

I hope he don't give himself too much stress and continue to work hard...

maomao... i believe you can make it and do it... JIA YOU!!!

money... money... money...

2009-05-05T17:23:00.005+08:00

Sunday same thing again papa drove me to work but the only different is we went to holland to eat our breakfast before i go to work... don't know what's in my assistant supervisor head... like bird brain lor... i didn't came in on the dot but she say i came in on the dot... stupid de lor... don't know how to see time... make me so angry and no mood to work... worst of the worst was still kana scolding at the later part when the half blind uncle arrive. think i better get something right. and that's never to be too kind cos being kind can leads you to nowhere...

bcos the uncle can't see very clearly, i help him to mark the coupon then help him to make the payment at the counter, then this was the time i kana scolding... shit her lor... somemore scold me in front of the customer, then the customer help me to me explaination also... bird brain de lor... this was what i feel so headache about, if i help customers, i kana scolding by the inside. if i don't help, i kana scolding by the customers. stupid right... that's what i always say it's really hard to be human...

sianz... really don't feel like working there already... sick and tired of the ppl working there... thought they are senior very big meh???

Anyway... another 9 more working days then i don't have to see those annoying ppl already... so what i've got to do now is endure... hehe...

has chat with yiling just now... and talk to her alot on my problems also... feel abit calm already but there's still a big stone inside unless i really know how to solve the problems... hmm... but no matter whether there's problems or not, i still got to cheer myself up and lead a heathy lifestyle... sad face won't lead me to anywhere isn't it?

hmmm... this coming Sunday is Mother's Day already and we still haven decide on where to bring mama for dinner... headache... most importantly, our driver papa, don't if he willingto drive us to the place we want to go anot... haha...

Gosh... This month don't know why, i'm so lack of money... have to spend here and there... yesterday went to JP still sign up for medishield protection type of thing... ai ya... so headache... maybe it's bcos i'm growing up already... i start to think alot about my future... Like CPF, buying an apartment, retirement fees, health protection scheme, saving plans etc... so headache with all this thingy...

PLUS... maomao's tuition fees i still haven give him yet... x_x dying soon...

Hmmm... Headache... Was it bcos of PSLE coming soon or was it bcos maomao was in the so called EM1 class that had made him so stress out and don't even know what he really wants...

he was very stress now... towards school work, exams, competitions and even choosing a secondary school... i feel so worry about him... he seems to be like giving himself up but he was still very scare that he will disappoint us... he always stays up late at night to do homework and had skip meals very oftenly...

i don't want help to be so stress, i hope he knows how to enjoy life, work hard and try his best... just don't have the feeling regrets in the future and that's all...

had talk to him and gave him advise... i hope he knows how to handle and understands what i mean...

yoz...

2009-05-02T00:58:00.001+08:00

hey... i'm back again...

was wondering where Vincent brought to on Wednesday, end up i suggest we go to west coast to have our dinner and then go west coast park walk walk...

I'm so happy yesterday[30 Apr] cos my company has given me two magazines the english and chinese lifestyle... plus it the last the of the month which means pay is out soon and i don't have to lose this job so soon cos i still got work to do... haha....

but what's sad and boring was 1 May, labour day a public holiday... i still got to work at the holland turf club... thought i could take a rest and only give jordan tuition but who knows, they still want us back to work... what's more was tml[2 May] it's actually my official off day lor, but they asked me back saying that there's this big boss coming down to take a look... so they want us back to work... shit... tired till i don't what to say....

he called today and asked me if i could lend him some money... hai... now i don't if i should or shouldn't lend...

headache....

by the way... i've got new blog again but this blog was abit different as it introduce the things i've ate and my comments about it... interested can go see see... haha...

Working & working...

2009-04-29T17:42:00.003+08:00

It's like more than a week that I haven't been doing blogging already cos i've really got no time to spare... Primary schools examinations are near and i've got to prepare more and more worksheets for students to do plus they are requesting for an increase in the number of days for tuition this few weeks... -_-''' dying soon... extra stress...

Hmmm... there's actually nothing really special happened last week except for the roadshow last Friday [24 Apr]. I've asked to help out at the roadshow which was held at West Coast Plaza, it's actually Sabah promotions roadshows, i think... cos no one actually told me what was this roadshow about. haha... it's been quite of relax cos i don't have to do any data entries that day and i could wake up late than usual cos my reporting time was at 9.30am plus i could relax my eyes, so good...

Vincent had also came to look for me at the plaza too... He actually wanted to take me out for lurch that day but end up no cos he was angry due to our miscommunication... so disappointing la... but anyway... i ended up went for late lurch myself... so lonely...

That day i was damn sad lor cos i've got to spend $9 to take cab to Holland turf club cos first, i was rushing and second, i don't know what bus to take to Holland... so no choice spend $9 to take cab... sian...

Saturday [25 Apr], had went to go be a kpo girl... cos my aunt, aunt jenny is looking for a new house as she has sold her house already and was looking for an ideal home now... so she asked me if i'm interested to go with her to take a look and at the same time, give her some opinion and comments about the house... and end up... everything was not bad, we both like the design/shape of the house alot except for the ugly pipes... very odd looking... however the house was like way too expensive already...

hmmm... as for this whole week, there's nothing really special happening...

Except that for yesterday was like so damn it lor... early in the morning quarrel with my brother and even drag my sister down to scold... really hate him lor... like to snatch using the toilet from us everytime...[sorry not sure of what word to use, sudden forgot...] shit lor... mummy already told him to use her toilet and don't use it when it's time for us to use cos we got to rush for work... but he just stupid, irritating and stubborn la... angry till ... ai yo... don't know how to describe... sian... this home... hai... forget it la...

Finally... Vincent was taking me out later... but... don't know where will we go... hmmm... i wonder...

Started to countdown...

2009-04-19T22:41:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to countdown on how many days i'm still able to work at NTUC Media and countdown on how many days i still have to work at the Holland Turf Club so that i can be free again.

Don't know why, i suddenly have the feeling of sadness why the time is near for me to leave this two working place, especially turf club. i've asked myself again and agian, why i want to leave the turf club? and my answer was i really hate the executive there and the pressure of pushing up sales... then again... i asked myself again, why can't i bear to leave the place? and my answer was i had knew a lot of nice ppl there and they are really kind to me especially the customers. they really had take very good care of me and i had already make friends with them. so here i was wonder again, will they ever miss me if i didn't work there already? and my answer was i don't know but i will miss them and that's i'm sure of.

anyway... here today, or perhaps these few days, i'm really not in a very good mood starting from thursday. eventually... i've tried to cried on thursday night and indeed i made it but just for awhile only. i feel very uncomfortable inside my heart and was like there something stack inside and was hurting me very painfully.

Think i know the reasons and i should have talk to him already. but i don't have the guts to tell him all this... and him, was like trying to avoid me by saying he was busy and was very very busy. even phone calls was also getting lesser and lesser... these all had made me more sad than ever.

i don't know how to settle this and how to start the whole topic to him. perhaps i should have let go of this feeling or never to start all this bullshit things right from the beginning so that i won't feel so hurt now.

hai... what now? what should i do?

Still can't decide...

2009-04-14T09:37:00.003+08:00

Had been awhile that i didn't blog already. Few things had happened recently which makes me feel very vexed and fraustrated...

Had went to grandma's tomb sweeping on 5 April [sunday]. Really missed her alot... Had talk alot to her... Telling her things that had happened recently and some of my problems... Hope she would blessed me in whatever i do...

Yan has finally graduate from RP on 8 April [Wed]. Had attended to her graduation with Hui... Was happy for her too and also Wang, my godbro, who is the same school as yan... It's like finally they have grown up... It also makes me feel like going back to school again... hehe... Anyway... I feel happy and proud of them...

Had went to O bar with yiling to celebrate her birthday on Friday night [10 April]. I've met Debbie, Shi Jie and Marie there as Debbie was also celebrating her bdae there too. What a coincident right? The world was just too small... hehe... Anyway I had enjoy that night no matter is it drinking or dancing. I hope Yiling doesn't gets angry cos i end up kept joining Shi Jie and Marie at the dance floor. And of cos, i ended up being send home by Shi Jie and his friend, Yun Xiang. Though it quite fun to go double O or O bar, but i still prefer a live band where it's not too noisy place to drink cos i just want to relax and enjoy drinking. haha...

After a few days of leave, when i return back to work at turf club, was like damn shit lor. Saw the irritating executive over there. It was like everytime i saw her, there won't be any good thing happen. so unlucky de...

was wondering when to quit the job at turf club. my schedule now was so pack and full that i don't even have to the time spare to take a very good rest. thought that i would have a good rest during public holiday but end up i've still got to give tuition. oh man... mama wants me to quit that job too as she wants me to go back to school more often so that i could check with the school about IR progress and practice on my skills too. But now, I'm headache with when should i quit and how should i tell my supervisor.

I wonder... if i were to quit, will there be anyone over there miss me? hehe... three months, though it's neither long nor it's short too. I really had communicate and see many different types of gamblers. I had even make friends with some of them too... there's also a number of caring uncles there who always buys me drinks and food. really appreciate it and feel very grateful too... there's also this cleaner who i called her as my lover. really feels great to know her... guess there's always hello and then goodbye... think i will miss them alot after i've quit.

Anyway... Last sat have a small quarrel with Vincent about i went clubbing and there's one guy hugging me when we are dancing. I just don't get why he has to be so angry and jealous about it. cos i think it's just ridiculous that he's so jealous as he has already got a girlfriend.

I really don't understand what does he want. I can't figure out what is he thinking of. I admit that i really fall for him but i'm just way too scare that i may fall really deep. i just don't want to gt hurt anymore. i was so sad and really can't help it. my heart just sank out of no where after drinking on Friday night. I'm scare of losing him now and i really miss him. But i just can't help avoiding him somehow. i start to wonder whether to listen to his phone calls when he called [but i'm still waiting for him to call].

Now... I really don't know what i want. yan's grad that day, he took me out to play. was really happy that day but i was wondering, we still got how many happy moments together? I don't want to break others relationship but he's just too good to me that i can't help falling for him...

Argh... what am i suppose to do now?

Drinking...

2009-03-30T16:29:00.008+08:00

Don't know why these few days i really feel like drinking alot. it seems like i really got alot of problems and didn't know how to resolve it. ya... i know drinking won't solve any problems but to bravely face it...

yesterday went to my great uncle's grandchild's full month party. was like very damn angry after attending lor... cos i was been told that i'm so out of the way la. shit de lor... suddenly don't know why i have relatives, really sometimes i feel hard to communicate... come on la... we are all human beings, we are all the same nothing different. the difference in us was only the way of living. doesn't mean you have a higher education, you can look down on others lor. DON'T FORGET your parents, your grandparents, your grand great parent etc... are also not high educated people lor, but they still survive. Don't understand what's there to look down on others. Don't tell me, the time when you are born, money, high educations etc... just come out with you lor. It's just a batch of shit... All these things are things you earn and learn thru growing.

Really high educated people now are really brainless and no manners... World are really turning very bad now... that's what i can say...

Anyway... yesterday's red wine was very not delicious to drink it just taste awful. My uncle[father's side] still say nice, don't know if he really knows how to drink anot. haha... But the day before red wine was much delicious, it just taste great. My uncle[mother's side], uncle Willie, really knows how appreciate wine. All the wine at his house were those very delicious, very tasteful ones. I just like to drink with him and talk about it with him. haha... Just like uncle Thomas, he too also good at drinking. And they will always have nice wine to share. hehe...

Now, I really have two very headache things on hand that I've go to handle. First, was my career and Second, was relationships. By right, relationship problems shouldn't have occurred in my whole plan. But no choice, sometimes things just happened unexpectedly huh?

Sianz... at this very critical moment for me, there's still relationship problems come and disturb me. Here i was already very worried about my career, was wondering when will sands called me. I worried till my hurt had already sank to the bottom already. then, there's this guy just enter my life making me so vexed about the relationship between us. haiz... it really makes me feel very sick...

The worst part was the thing that I've tried to avoid or prevent from happening has happened, and that's kissing. I've tried to avoid his kiss even only he was just talking or asking about it. But end up, it still happened last friday, which he took me out for a show. I don't know whether is it because i regret to kiss or what but what i know was i really want to avoid it, cos there's some reason behind that i can't say out.

Oh god... yesterday while working at Holland, I just feeling like hugging him just like we hug at the arcade, and i really will miss him if we didn't meet up. What am i suppose to do??? Told him already la, don't treat me so good, now what??? Haiz... headaches, headaches and more headaches...

I just hope Marina sands could call me asap. I really just can't wait to work there already... Please god...

I'm so worry...

2009-03-26T23:23:00.002+08:00

After listening to the news last night, I got all so worked up. I'm so worry that i can't be able to work in Marina Bay Sands. I send in my resume again last night. Hopefully they will contact me very soon.

I contact Shao Wei, my senior, this morning too. He told me that no one in our school receive any calls from sands yet, and if ever anyone receive, he will get me inform so he ask me don't worry.

But how was i not worry? It's like it's going to April already and i still haven receive any good news yet. I'm really scared and I feel really pressurized. hai...

another headache thing was Vincent, he seems like didn't tell me any truth at all ever since we get to know each other. I don't know when did he tell me the truth, when he didn't. But what i can say is he's really good to me. he brought me for lurch every afternoons when i work at Raffles.

I really hope that he could tell me truth from now on. I hope to listen to his truth words and not fake. I really don't wish to get hurt anymore. especially after watching channel 8, 9pm show, housewife holiday. It really proof that men are of no good at all and women must really learn how to protect herself, enjoy herself and most importantly depend on herself. She must know how to keep some money up so that if one day, she's been dump, she don't have to worry too much.

Soooo Good....

2009-03-25T23:32:00.002+08:00

I feel very happy today. I've my half day off today so that I can go to update my passport but end up they told me that I've to make a new one cos the old ones can't be update already.

Anyway, after going to ICA, I really have no place to go and i didn't know where should i go. Vincent called me while I'm taking MRT back from Lavander. Didn't told him that I've took half day off cos I don't have the intention to tell him at all. Think he got a little angry when the moment that i told him cos he say i should tell him so that he can bring me out to have lurch and watch movie.

End up, we meet at Orchard then we went to Cineleisure to have my lurch. After eating, he bring me to arcade to play games. We played the basketball machine for a very long time so that we can hit the target to proceed to Stage 3. It's so fun... haha... It's like it's been a very long time that I've played at the arcade.

Emmm... don't know i feel so calm when i lie on his shoulder. We seems to be like a real couple. And this kind of feeling was so real. I feel relax, calm and happy to be with him. It's like I don't have to worry about anything. It felt so great.

Sian...

2009-03-23T21:05:00.003+08:00

Last week days pass by very slowly for me, as if I'm waiting for the time to pass.

Satuday night, Yiling has came over to have a drink with yan and me as yan and I had agreed before that we should drink at least twice a month. Quite fun when we drink and chat at the same time actually. And what's more, the next day when I woke up, I feel really fresh....

Anyway, I was still wondering what kind of relationships was Vincent and I in. Sometimes he was like so close to me but yet too far from me. I really couldn't guess out what is he thinking about.

Very Tired...

2009-03-21T23:53:00.002+08:00

Hope to regain my freedom again. I'm so hooked with my busy schedule. I've really got no spare time for myself and can't even enjoy myself. People around me had said that I look so tired and was going to fall ill very soon.

I don't know what so i do at home on the other hand that if i didn't work, what should i do?

Got so many problems recently... I'm going to have headache very soon. Need to settle everything down as soon as possible.

Especially relationship problems... Got soooooo irritated about it... Xi kept on harass me, asking me if i really had forrgotten him or even hate him. I really don't feel like answering his questions but I'm worry that if i didn't answer, he will still kept on smsing me. So fraustrated la...

On the other hand was Vincent. I really don't know what kind of a relations are we in right now. It was like yesterday we are holding hands, chatting like couples, today we are like total strangers, pretend that we didn't saw each other. I was really very confused. Ok... I admit, I really fell for him but just didn't dare to tell him yet. Cos i scare that i will get hurt again...

had told him today about this too, and he say he also don't want to hurt me and ask me to take care. guess he just not being serious at all ba.

One week...

2009-03-19T14:53:00.002+08:00

About to one week that I've been seeing Vincent already. He told me he's busy this whole week so he don't have the time to come and find me. Yesterday, I guess he doesn't have any time to spend as he didn't give me any calls at all.

Actually I was really curious about him and I really don't know what is his intentions. I've really got a confirm feeling that he don't actually like to eat Japanese food. But I don't understand why he would want to bring me go to eat Jap food, and Monday, he eve told me that he actually wanted to come and find me to take me go Jap restaurant for lurch but he's not free that day.

This morning he called me, he was falling ill already.Was quite worry for him, I hope he gets better soon. He said he had went to pub for the past 2 nights already, but he couldn't drink cos he will easily turns red [really can't believe it]. After I told him I did drink but red wine, he say that knows me was a very expensive thing cos almost everything that I consume was those expensive stuff.

I knows that too. haha... But I think that doesn't really bothers him ba, cos we aren't an item so he could actually don't have to worry about it.

Don't know why I start to miss him already. Die le la...

Oh... Darling I miss you too...

Moody Week...

2009-03-16T22:41:00.002+08:00

It's been a very moody week for me ever since that very night that I sudden wake up. I couldn't cheer myself up even a little.

I've always have loads of problems to think. Friday night, Yiling came over to bake cookies and cake. But we started baking very late that night cos I've still gotta go Holland Turf Club to work till 10 plus. Vincent send me home that day and had even order a takeaway Hor Fun for me cos he knew that I didn't have my dinner. He's really a sweet guy that's what I can say. But guess I don't have the luck to ever got this kind of sweet guy as my boyfriend.

That night when Yiling came over, I've discuss with Yiling about whether Vincent was interested in me as the things that Vincent had done, was making feel very weird and really had no point of doing it. After hearing my points, Yiling told me that Vincent was indeed interested in me and the best part was, I'm also interested in him and so she feels that I should give it a try if he ever will to woo me.

But I'm scare and really don't know how and what to do. Mama always have alot of naggy things to say no matter was it a good person or a bad person I'm hanging out with. She always have alot of critism about my friends, no matter it's a male or female. I feel like she's going to drive me crazy.

I always had to be very careful if I want to make friends and that's why till now, I don't have a single friend by my side to chat to. She makes me no mood to ever make friends as I feel that there's no point in making friends cos end up, she will tell me side effects and critize those friends that I've made. I really feel no point in doing it.

I feel very lonely, very tired. I told mama about this guy that I hang out with is because I respect her as a mother and not to always shoot me. But end up, it's still the same. She makes me feel that there isn't love in this whole world but only money. And that's why what I'm thinking now was to everyday make more money.

I'm really feeling stress and tired now. I've got no one to talk to, I'm lonely. I've always thought that I could talk to Yan about my problems but NO. she didin't even bother to hear what i want to say, instead I'm always her listener. Why is it that I'm always other people's listener and end up I don't even have a listener? I feel soooo out of control already and feel like bursting out. I feel sooo heartache and sometimes I even feel difficulty in breathing. I really need my own room but who can give me and when will i ever allow to have one? I feel like going to the beach, I don't like home, it really stress me out, and was really leading me out of my mind.

I want to earn more money, I want to buy a house on my own. I don't want to stay with anyone else. I need space, a space for breathing. I'm tired of hiding everything in my heart, I feel so heavy right now.

I even hope that if one day, I can just sleep and never woke up again. What's life??? Life is just so ugly for me. I only like my school days, those days when i spend in secondary school and casino school. I really enjoy those days and that was my best days, where I can make loads of friends.

Sian...

2009-03-12T22:06:00.002+08:00

Have taken a half day off my work today. Really not feeling very well, very sian, think I'm getting sick already. Suddenly wake up at 4am in the morning where I only get to sleep at 2am, very weird then after that I can't get to sleep until 5am. Has to wake up at 7am somemore.

Anyway, I'm having a very down mood from the moment I've woke up at 4am. Have think alot about relationships stuff and so on. Really feel very tired and hope to find someone who will be there for me, holding my hands giving me comfort and precious me. However, I'm scare after the break up with my ex. I've got no confidence in guys, I will always suspect why guys will want to be close to me or make friends with me. and on the other hand, I can't get use to guys treating me too good and care for me. I don't really hope they will care for me, cos... I'm afraid that I will get use to it and will fall for them.

Vincent, was treating me way too good already. I told him that I'm in a very bad mood and had even cried last night. So I was feeling very down and ask him if he want to join me for lurch today after my half day work. So he brought me to go eat sushi. I know he actually don't like to eat sushi so i asked him why he still wants to bring me there. His answer was 'because you said you like to eat sushi.' He's really caring and was treating me very nicely, and it makes me feel more scare that i will fall for him and start to depend on him. I ask him, he treats me so good, doesn't he afraid that i will fall for him? but he doesn't give me an exact answer, he just reply what to do?

I'm really very scare and was really troubled. I think I've started to fall for him already cos every night when I closed my eyes, I will saw his face. Oh man... what am i going to do?

Funny...

2009-03-10T20:47:00.002+08:00

Vincent, the guy that I've just make friend with at Holland Drive Turf Club, had came to find me at Raffles, my working place to go for lurch together. Quite cute lor... Came to find me just to take lurch then go back again, don't know what's he thinking of.

We went to find a place to take our lurch but no matter where we go, there's alot of people, very sian de leh... It's the second time that he saw me wearing skirt, so he praise me beautiful but call me not to wear it when I go Holland to work cos will be 'xian' by those uncles. Not very safe...

I ate fish noodle and he ate salted fish fried rice. But I don't know why my noodles got so many vegetables so I gave it to him which made him feel very weird that how come I don't eat vegetables. So he was like kept secretly smile, make me feel very shy... After eating we sit down there for awhile to chat. I asked him when is his birthday and then he told me that he was actually waiting for me to ask him questions, and this is the first question that I've asked ever since we started to chat.

It's like he wants me to know more about him that sort of feeling. haha... While walking back to my office building, he was like trying to hold my hand, but end up I notice it and he pretend that he wants to measure our hands see who's bigger. haha... Soooooo cute....

But I don't know... I didn't dare to think alot cos I'm scare that I will like him and started to fall for him. I don't want to fall for a person that easily again cos I'm really scare. What if it's just my imginations that he like me? Then I will sure to be hurt again. So I don't want it to happen again. Anyway, I don't think that I'm prepared to start a new relationship again. I don't want to hurt him too cos i really feel that he really a good and caring guy. He really melts me down but I just couldn't take it when someone treats me too good cos I will easily start to have feelings towards him.

God... tell me what should I do?

Working and working...

2009-03-09T21:32:00.002+08:00

Argh... I'm really very tired and getting sleepy. My eyesight was turning really bad recently... Really very sian... Hope to find my freedom and carefree life back again, before I start my job at Marina Sands which is my ideal career.

I've recently got a temp job as a data entry cum admin at Raffles Place, NTUC Media cooperative. Had alot of datas that need to be key into the pc and I've need to finish at least 300 entries. Now my eyes are really tired and was quite blur as I've to face the pc for at least 9 hours a day. Guess this job I can't take up for too long cos it's way too bad for my eyesight and the salary was really low as compared to my expected salary. hehe... Anyway, they only employ me for 3 mths, so got to endure for 3 short mths. Jia You...

I've really got no time to spend for myself. I'm way too busy already, I've got to work everyday including weekends. Monday and Tuesday, I've got to work from 9am - 6pm, Wednesday and Friday, 9am - 6pm at Raffles then rush down to Holland Drive to work until 11pm, Thursday, 9am - 6pm at Raffles then rush to give tuition until 9 plus. Saturday have to wake up early to go give tuition at 9.30am then rush down to Holland Drive to work until 6 plus. Sunday work from 12pm - 6 plus. My schedule was really very pack now. How I wish I could have loads of time to go shopping.

Very Weird...

2009-03-09T21:11:00.002+08:00

Last Sunday, when I was working at the Holland Drive Turf Club, there's this guy suddenly ask the cleaner who am I. I didn't even know him at all, not even see him there before but he say he actually saw me there a lot of times already. Haha... Weird guy...

He pretend to come and talk to me and then ask for my number. haha... Didn't want to give him my number at the first place until he say he wanted to make friends with me then I give him. Thought that he won't give me a call just to take my number for fun but end up, he called me on Monday, which really surprised me.

I really don't understand why me that he will want to call? Is it because I was the only young girl there?

He send me home on Wednesday and Friday nights after the race, which makes me feel that he was quite a sweet and caring guy. What's more, yesterday when i told him that I was having headache, he went to buy panadol for me. It's like it has been quite a long time that I have someone who cares for me a little. haha...[though i know i think too much]

These few days he has been calling me and talk a lot of rubbish which makes me laugh and laugh. Really stupid de leh. haha...

Hmmm.... Guess I will see him again on Wednesday night.

Overall... He's really a sweet guy I can say.

Boring life...

2009-03-02T00:45:00.002+08:00

25 Feb [Wed], have went to clubbing at double o with Marie. It's my first time to go clubbing. It's absolutely very noisy inside and you could hardly hear what your friends say. When you've got out of the place, you will feel that your ear was like going to be deaf very soon. You could also see loads of crazy drunkers, crazy women that got drunk and still want to stay on to dance instead of going home and stinking men getting close to ladies while they are at the dance floor and then rub their bodies onto the ladies. Really don't very like it actually but I still do enjoy the dance there.

Hmmm... Had went to pub, liveband pub and clubbing already. So in conclusion, I still prefer to go liveband pub to drink cos it's still more enjoying and a really good place to relax by listening to the songs.

26 Feb [Thurs], Hui, Yan, Mao Mao and me had went to Taman Jurong Party World. Mao Mao was on MC that day so that's why he also can join us. Was quite enjoying that day... haha...

28 Feb [Sat] and 1 Mar [Sun], this two days had been a very weird day for as I've been receiving tips from two uncles. I know why Sat the uncle had give me the tips but I don't understand why today the uncle will to give me tips. Feel very weird but still happy cos I've got extra money to earn. hehe...

Time flies fast...

2009-02-24T02:12:00.002+08:00

Another week had just gone... Without realising it, I've already been working at the turf club for almost a month already. And hurray that I'm going to receive my pay very soon. But here I am still looking for another job. but guess it's still not on the track yet cos I've haven got past any interviews yet and was still looking for one.

Hmmm... Jia you ba...

Anyway, haven reply Xi's smses yet. Cos I really don't know how to start the topic. Though I'm very sure that I shouldn't have reply so that he won't think too much but what Raj say was actually right. Even if we can't be together, we could stay be friends. So I should at least reply him and tell him how I feel and what I really think.

BUT... I guess it's still hard for me to start the text. I'm still thinking of him and even his birthday, I was thinking of whether I should give him a present or not. Hmmm... but what I know now was I only treat him as a friend already and not that kind of feeling. Cos I already told myself that I should let him go and hope that he will treat his wife better.

Hmmm... Now that when I think back, lucky I didn't anyhow.com with him the last time if not, I might be his wife now already and not his current wife. It's lucky for me, this is what I can say, if not mama sure will kill me.

Think I've got to open my eyes wide the next time when I'm looking for a partner that I want to spend my entire life with....

Very vexed....

2009-02-19T20:01:00.002+08:00

I'm very vexed recently... Due to finding jobs and relationship.

Finding jobs are really difficult nowadays. It seems like wanting a star from the sky. It's like even with high qualifications, jobs are still difficult to get. so damn sian.

Really hope to find a stable job soon so that i can earn more money...

Just Passed...

2009-02-15T00:07:00.003+08:00

Has passed 12am... Which means Valentine had just passed... Haha... Still not very bad today cos the time seems to be passing very fast.

Had slept only at 5am this morning and therefore, I woke up late today, about 3 plus in the afternoon. Hehe...

Had asked a-jiu out to JP after I washed up. We went to JP to eat duck noodles, this is my one and only meal for the day wor... After eating, we had went shopping at JP. Nothing much to see or buy actually, the only thing that I've bought was a pair of shoe which was paid by a-jiu. heez... There's too many couples walking around which had made us feel quite depressed. But there's nothing much we can do isn't it? Just act the normal way will do I guess.

After shopping with a-jiu, I went to 474 to meet mama's godsons [the China guys]. Had sat down at the coffee shop nearby to have a drink and chit-chat. The five of them was drinking beer and I'm drinking green tea. Xin xin was quite a gentleman as he helped me to open the drink and even pour into the cup for me. Don't like to drink beer cos I don't really like the taste, was quite smelly actually.

Niu had tell me alot of things about his hometown. Like the food and places of interest, was quite interesting. Really have the feeling of going there to try everything out. Niu also told me that if Sunday I'm wasn't working, he will teach me roller skating, oh... so looking forward, but was quite scared. haha...

Bao and xin xin send me home just now. And xin xin helped to carry my bag. On the way home, bao was really mischevious, he suddenly carry a cat, almost scared me to death. haha...

Anyway, at least my Valentine day wasn't still very boring. But I still hope that I can find my Valentine real soon.

：(

2009-02-11T23:48:00.002+08:00

I'm so vexed and irritated... I'm really getting headache... I'm lost now, lost in a huge forest, finding my way out. Maybe, what dear say was right. In the whole world, casino job wasn't the only one, there's still others. If I'm not shortlisted, I can still look for other jobs. But, I guess if only I've got a higher educated cert, I will feel better.

Valentine was also near... And I still haven got a partner to celebrate this occasion with me. Hmmm... Guess i'm a total failure. No job, No partner, no good cert, no to everything...

Sometimes, I was thinking... Why in the earth that I came to this world? I was such an embrassing art work done by my parents. I can't handle simple thing like friendship. I don't even dare to speak out or make a friend... Not pretty at all, and still don't know how to make up and dress up...

people say that they feel that I'm a kind person, a caring and thoughtful one. But guess it's a lie... No confident and so I don't feel brave enough to face the world. Always been looked down by people. What the hulk was this?

I've always imagine that I've got a really nice partner, nice job and nice family. I've got everything I want but, that wasn't true. It's all imaginary, a fake one...

I hate valentine...

Don't feel very good now...

2009-02-09T22:39:00.002+08:00

I'm not feeling very good right now. It's like I'm losing confident in what I aimed to do. Suddenly I've got the feeling that I might to be recruited by Sands. It seems like everyone was telling me that I'm not suitable for the job and Sands will not be hiring us as they want to hire someone with casino experience. I'm really very confused, I don't have the confident already.

What if? Sands don't employ me? What am I suppose to do? I really don't dare to see, dream or think about it. What's worse, I don't even have a Diploma. Now, I know what kind of course I'm interested in already but guess it's too late cos my dad doesn't want to spend any money on me. So, I've got to look for a job and earn loads of money to sponsor myself. But, the employment status now are really bad and I really can't find any job at all.

Oh man... What am I going to do? Guess I've got to be more hardworking by taking more jobs or maybe have two to three jobs in a week. Although it's of no difference to what I'm doing now cos I'm taking 2 already... I just hope to earn more money so that I've got the money to go pick up the course that I want.

Oh... May god bless me...

So enjoying...

2009-02-08T01:03:00.002+08:00

Had went to school early today to help out. Raj called me on Thursday and ask me if I'm free today. And I said yes, so he call me to go ICG to help out.

Yesterday, Raj called again and confirmed with me that Nick say wants me to go to school to help out. The only difference this time round was I don't have to wear uniform but office wear cos my job there was to collect C.V. from those graduated students.

There's really loads of people there in school as it's our open house and at the same time it's also open to the public. So it's like anyone could just walk in to take a look.

There's actually also loads of graduates turn up too... Seniors who has already got the experience working in casinos also turn up too and they share some of their experience with me when we are having our break.

I'm so happy today too as I got to know loads of our seniors and they are really very friendly not like my classmates... So politics... Oh yes... we even have cai shen ye walking around the school too. It was like a real one walking around but too bad I didn't have a cam with me, if not i will sure want to take photos with him [he's one of my senior too].

After the whole event, I stayed back to help clear up everything before I leave, however, I was held back by Raj as he wanted to treat me dinner. Nick told me that he might need my help again in the next month event. So i told him to give me a call if he needs my help.

By the way, the news today have reported our school... hehe... So proud of it^o^

Bye bye...

2009-02-07T01:05:00.003+08:00

Another mama's godson, a-chen has went back to China. Me and yan had went to airport to sent him off on Tuesday [3 Feb].

That very afternoon, I've went to JP to meet Chen. This was his very last day in Singapore and we had our lurch together at JP. After that, we just sit down there to talk for awhile and then both of us went into silence. I could see tears in his eyes and I know he actually can't bear to leave all of us, his friends, in Sinapore.

This is what he told me. "The first day I came to Singapore, I hope that I can go back to China real soon and I really hope time pass. If I hadn't get to know all of you, your mother, father, yan and you, maybe now I won't feel so unsecure and unbearable. But on the other hand, if it hadn't that I get to know all of you, my life in Singapore won't be happy and so enjoying. I will never get to know that there's someone that's so good and has been very taking care of me. Your mother was really a very good, loving and caring mother. I'm really very glad that I've even got a mum in Singapore. She really dotes me and I really love her. yan and you were also a very good girl, always remember to take good care of your mum and be good and filial to her. Go factory with her to help out when free. Remember to earn and save alot of money so that both of you can bring your mum to Da Lian and visit Jun and me. Don't worry the expenses there, just save enough for air ticket will do, the rest of them I will settle."

Really very touching and unbearable. Think I will miss him...

That very night, yan cried cos he didn't even told us that he's going in already and he just check in like that. We didn't even got the chance to say goodbye or even hug him. I think I know why he didn't even want to see us directly into our eyes. Perhaps he's afriad he will cry, and he doesn't want us to see it. But, after he has went in, although he's very far away, I could see him wiping his tears.

Hope he could be more better back home and take good care...

Welcome To Terminal 3

Weird Fan@_@

Air-con was blowing from the hole...

Soooo cold~~~

Birthday + Getting to know new friends...

2009-02-05T23:10:00.004+08:00

It's finally to the last important thing I wanted to blog. And that's Yan yan's bdae.

Has been busy this few days in blogging Genting event and working. haha... So was like quite weird that now then I blog yan's bade.

Anyway... Yan was finally 21 years old already. Finally a grown up girl, and she has to be more sensible when think thrice before making decisions. Plus, with her graduated from RP, hope she could get herself an ideal job which she enjoys doing.

Sunday [1 Feb], was yan's big day. I couldn't get up early in the morning because I actually got slept only in the morning that day cos i've help my mama to peel Bai Guo so that she could cook Qing Teng for the guest to eat.

By the time I've woke up. Xiao Yi, Joell, Jordan, Edwin, a-jiu and Xiao Hui [Yan's BF] have already reached. They reached early so that they can come and help mama to reduce some tasks. Especially Xiao Hui, mama say he's really a good boy cos he came very early to help out already. Really appreciate it...

After I've got all washed up and dressed up, I help mama to complete the rest of the preparation and went downstair to the BBQ pit to settle everything and at the same time, yan and hui went to got take the otahs and buy ice. Jordan and Joell help to blow balloons and bring it down to decorate the place.

By the time, yan's friends has arrived. the only thing that we are surprise was that our grandaunt and granduncle also came for the party. My mama's godsons also came. was like quite busy, like not enough mouth to use. haha....

Anyway, what I'm more content with is the cake cos it was designed by me and I'm scared that the outcome won't be as nice as i thought it would be. But end up not bad. haha... the original design was actually plain and simple except with the strawberry, 21 and the name. The final design was done by me at a void deck after i've collected the cake. I surround the 21 with the stars and finally sprinkle the stars at the tail part of the key. Yan say she really likes the design of the cake. No choice... haha... she's mu only sister so has to dote her... haha.... However... I still did some naughty things to trick her. [I called maomao to exchange the normal candle to the relighting ones. haha...]

has also made friends with mama's godson. one of them was new here was so happy that i've got one more friend.

okay... that's that... hope you enjoy the pics...

the original cake...

after decorated by me... hehe...

unable to blow off the candle...

Genting Trip...

2009-02-03T15:15:00.005+08:00

Sunday [25 Jan], We reached Genting at 4am. It's really very cooling and not cold at all. Maybe it's because the air-con on the bus was turn low and we are used to the coolness. Thought that when we reach, we are able to get our room very soon cos we are very tired and due to it's way too early and the shops aren't opened yet and so we got no place to shop.

While waiting for the rooms, I've tried to sms my friend, Christopher, who was working at the casino. But I don't even know how come this time round I can't be able to use any roaming service, was so irritated and faustrated about it plus, we have to wait until 1pm then we can get our room. Shit de lor.

So.... We've got no choice but to go shopping [those what we call 7-11 stores in Singapore]. Haha... was sort of bo liao... A-jiu bought a handphone strap for me and yan. Oh ya... I even accompanied my daddy and mummy to casino cos i wanted to find my friend Christ. Papa bring me to take a cup of free milo to drink before they start to gamble. However, I didn't stay very long, once I confirm that my friend was not at the first world casino, I just walk out to find a-jiu, yan and maomao. Maybe it's because I'm allerged to milo but still drank two cups of it and therefore, I went to the toilet to vomit after i met up with a-jiu...

End up... I saw my friend at Morte Carl casino[if i didn't remember the name wrongly], while we are shopping at the Genting Resort and help a-jiu to change his worldcard to a green one.

After long hours of shopping, we finally got our room. Soooooo excited la... We can finally get some rest. But, it's not for long cos we still got to go check if there's any available space booking for the reunion dinner, then go to tower 2 to find mama papa... [so troublesome cos we've got too many rooms for the first day.] So... It's like yan, maomao, a-jiu and me didn't get any sleep.

Haha... It's the first time also for to have such a very tiring dinner cos it's like after eating a dish, I just fell asleep like that. Haha... Really very gan ku la...

Funny that I still can manage to go buy coffee at coffeebean with yan in the middle of the night. haha....

Day 2...

Had been woke up by mama very early in the morning to go eat breakfast. Actually, we had plan to go Theme Park play but end up we've got to cancel it cos we have a very full breakfast. So end up, we still go shopping so that we can digest everything that we've eaten.

We've even bring maomao to go shopping after bowling so that he can buy some of his clothes. It's only then i know that maomao was very very good at shopping. My legs was very tiring and aching after shopping with him.

It's also my first time to score 100 plus points for the game. haha... Super leh...

Nothing much that we have done on that day actually. But it's still the same that in the middle of the night, yan and me had went to drink coffee.

Day 3...

Don't know what happen to mama.... Early in the morning had throw temper at us. First, wake us up much earlier than the day before. Second, scolded papa for being disappeared when we have all say that we are meeting at the first world cafe for breakfast buffet. Third, was the most ridiculous one scold yan and me for nothing. Was like feeling very bad luck for that day.

So end up yan was like very moody, and me, just treat as nothing had happen. After the breakfast, a-jiu, maomao, yan and me went to the Theme park to play. We bring a-jiu to play pirate ship, and he was like feeling very wobbly after the ride. So the rest of the rides he didn't dare to sit.

We ride the big and small roller coaster but yan and maomao had ride one more than me[ cos i didn't dare to take that, Not really know what's the name so didn't mention.] was quite fun...

So, maomao took the flyer coaster after we came out of the Theme Park. It's the only ride that everytime when we go Genting, he will ask to take.

After playing at the Theme Park, when went to eat our dinner then went back to the room and sleep. At about 6 plus, we went to play bowling. then shop again.

At night, my friend met me at the arcade so that we can chat. It's been a very long time that I've seen him. He share alot of casino experiences and some tips for being a dealer. He even wants me to go back to school and practice more on all of the games that we've learnt so that I'm more skillful, confident and less worry.

Last day...

It's finally our last day and we are taking the 2pm bus home. We didn't go to eat breakfast with papa mama, Jia Ye and a-jiu. I bring maomao and yan go Marybrown to take our breakfast. Then go for our last shopping before we go back to our room to fetch our bags.

On the way to the bus station, a-jiu bought strawberry chocolate fondue for me and marshmallows one for maomao, cos he knows we like to eat. So good of him, love him loads loads...

Photos are at the pics sessions...[hope I could get it done real soon]

Here's our neoprint...

Hi ya ^o^

2009-02-01T02:20:00.002+08:00

Hi... I'm back again... Had been very very busy since last Tuesday after my very last updated blog on the 19th.

Tuesday [20 Jan], had went to Soon Hin to help my mummy and daddy cos they say they can't finish their work on time as there's too many things to do. And that's also my most busiest day of all in the whole week cos I've still got to give tuition in the afternoon, it was like when i reach home at about 12pm then rest for awhile, I really couldn't get up at all due to bodyache [too long never help mama to carry heavy pig parts le, very no strength]. Still, I didn't go home rest after giving tuition cos I've got to rush down to International Plaza to sign employee form. Then, after that went to meet a-jiu. It's was like you can't even stand very still when the wind blows. Haha..

Maybe it's because I've got quite sometime never went to the factory already, it's like everyone there was quite surprise to see me. Ping was like damn excited to see me there as he has come in and out of our working place quite alot of times which makes mama so irritated [as he usually don't ever step in at all]. Then Niu and Chen was like wow... so long never see you here, and bao, a new guy there, had never saw me help papa mama at all, standing beside me for awhile and see me working. Then the rest was those new guys that I've never see them before, just stare at me very curiously, plus the new aunties there don't even know i'm mama's daughter [like can't see we are sooooo alike meh?] ask very stupid questions lor. Thought I'm a new comer and was there for training, oh please... I could be counted as their senior already lor, the uncles there has already salute to yan and me already. Too bad... never got to see meng there. A-leong, say that i haven't been taking care of my face recently cos it look quite bad, but it's not i'm the one who had make my face like this. It's my skin consultant made it lor, somemore is NEW YORK skin solution. don't know if they know to cure the face anot de leh, only know how to squeeze people's acne nia. So sad la... make my face until like that, make me don't dare to see people le.

Wednesday [21 Jan], maybe it's because i'm too tired the day before le. I've slept until about 3 plus in the afternoon. Then, I've got to cancel my new york appointment as I really couldn't wake up at all. So, I was very enjoying my bedtime at that very moment. Haha...

Friday [23 Jan], had went to factory to help mama again. This time, finally saw meng already as mama had cooked a pot of green bean soup for everyone including her godson to drink so as to reduce heatiness. Meng was like very surprise to see me and he was so cute when he wear Soon Hin's uniform. haha... There's really alot of pigs to be chop and it was like there isn't really alot of time for us to spare. Sooooo very the tired... The pig parts was really damn heavy sia, all of them was 30 over kg. And the second round pigs that's been delivered was way too many that mama need help to push the parts into the fridge. Haha.. the new china guy was surprised that I've the strength to push so many and that he helped me with it.

Saturday [24 Jan], it was the last day to work before the new year. I've still got to go factory to help mama to chop chicken cube. really alot about 200 over kg to be chopped. But the most surprise thing to me was that meng. He's really super and powerful as he can stand not getting any sleep at all and work almost 24 hr. I've even got a big hong bao from papa's boss.

Hmmm... At night, we took coach from Boon Lay to Genting. Had sit an excutive coach, got massage seat and tv/games to play. Soooo good...

A lazy day...

2009-01-19T15:43:00.006+08:00

It's another lazy day for me again. But... I've to do ironing later on. Now, I'm really very headache about coming up with designs for yan's bdae cake. don't know what should i design better plus the shape of the cake. Ai yo... very headache sia...

And oh yes countdown to 4days and off i go to Genting again. Wonder what shall I do at Genting. hehe... Hope i can meet my friend there...

Oh yes the photos, Here they are, it's taken on Saturday when i go to the parties...

I'm not feeling very well now...

2009-01-18T22:13:00.002+08:00

Have went to 2 birthday parties yesterday, was like very busy sia.

Had met Hui and Sin Yee at JP yesterday before we go to Wang Wang's 21st birthday party. Had bought a blue cap for him, due to budget problems, we had chosen a cheaper one but still branded de la.

It's been a very long time that I've seen wang wang. He was like much more taller than before plus very dark skin tone due to he teach swimming. haha... Was very happy to see him again and that he had really grow up. Emm... I didn't stay too late at his party cos have to rush for the 2nd party. So I've missed wang wang's birthday cake, so was like quite disappointed as I've seen his cake and it's really very chocolaty and I really feel like eating it. haha...

But anyway, wang, happy 21st birthday to you...

Aunt Yue Qiu had came to poineer mall to fetch us as wang's party was held near poineer mall. She drive us to my one and only elder cousin, Jia Da's birthday party.[though he was the same age as me, but he still elder than me due to our bdae months]

It's the first time to attend his birthday so it was like abit awkward at first, but after all was still ok. Don't know what to buy for him, and therefore maomao had chose a very simple ear stud for him as a present.

As I've already eaten at wang's party, I couldn't eat anything at Jia Da's party but maybe just some fruits and finger food. If not, Jia Da will feel disappointed de, hehe...

After the party, Aunt Yue Qiu bought us to play bowling. It's also my first time to play a sport with her . So it's quite fun actually plus Jia Da also joined us at the later part. It's also the first time too, to get so close with yang yang. Haha... So cute la...

Hmmm... still got a few more days going to be Chinese New Year soon. Which means we are goign to Genting very soon. But, now I'm really feeling very no good cos I'm sick :(
Hope I can get well very soon...

I wonder... Should I go back to school this Wednesday anot... Hmmm...

What's Happening to me???

2009-01-17T05:07:00.003+08:00

It's already 5am in the morning already and yet, I'm still here doing blogging cos I couldn't get to sleep.

I'm really feeling very hurt already. Darling hasn't called me for a week already and I'm still waiting here for his calls. But guess he won't... Think he's ignoring me already and doesn't want to talk or contact me anymore.

But I really miss him alot. I've got so many things to tell him, talk to him and share with him. But guess now I can only swallow everything inside my stomach already. I feeling really very down now and had even cried just now.

Though I know that cry doesn't make any difference as he won't know or even won't care i guess but I really don't know why my tears just couldn't stop flowing out. He use to tell me not to cry cos he will get worry or sad. But now, think it doesn't matter anymore.

Oh god... Please help me...

I couldn't go to Xi and talk or share with him cos he's already a married guy. Though he wants to be together with me again, but that's impossible for us to be like we use to be. I can't share anythings with him anymore. It has changed and things are different already.

I really can't figure out what has happen to me. I just couldn't stop thinking about darling and i really miss him alot alot. Can it be I really fall for him without realising it? Oh man... I really can't do that, just like he told me before, NEVER to fall for him. I really can't but I can do nothing to control myself. What should I do now??? Oh man...

I really got no one to share my problems already... Yan got her boy and I could hardly share my problems with her. As she's in love and everything I told her, she would only think I'm just crazy and ridiculous. Just tell me don't think too much.

Maomao, although he's mature enough to hear me out, but his opinion was unrealistic. Shit... What should I do now??? I just hope darling can call me real soon... Please god...

So sad and really missing him alot...

2009-01-15T18:55:00.002+08:00

It's been about a week that i can't be able to contact darling already. I'm really very upset and miss him plus started to get all day worry. I really can't figure out what really happen until a few minutes ago, I check my email using my old lappy then I've found out that he has email me on Saturday [10 Jan], telling me that he has lost his phone and ask me to email him my number. Really damn shit with my this new lappy, don't know what's wrong that I can't check my emails for several days already. Ohhh.... I hope darling could read his mail very soon and then give me a call or maybe receive a msg from him.

Yesterday bring maomao to eat Sakae Sushi at JP to celebrate his 12 year old birthday. As per normal, after eating, I will buy a froggie for him and now, he's got a total of 5 froggies already.

Weird thing happen yesterday. My ex malaysian boyfriend suddenly sms again. He apologised to me of what he has done and hurting me. He also told me that he has got married, but he hasn't got over me yet. No wonder I felt very weird that why he would suddenly sms me and ask me some weird questions like if i had really got over him already. In fact, I couldn't make any lies from my heart, as i really haven got over him yet as i will still think of him but not that often. But... What I can say that he's not that important to me as he use to be. I then notice that whether he did sms to me again or not, I didn't get any haapy as i once were. He ask me if we could be like we use to be or not? He hopes that we can be together like last time, our happy memories. But I don't think we can already cos he's already gotten married and all of the things has changed, nothing in the whole world can change back to the original place.

I've finally take my contact lens yesterday. Wearing contact lens was really weird. There's a kind of weird feeling when wearing the lens. Like there's a thin piece of plastic was placed on your eyeball. But I think I will be able to get use to wearing it very soon... hehe... Jia you....

Dear... I really hope you can call me...

Finally...

2009-01-12T20:49:00.002+08:00

Had finally finished my 2 days of on-job training. Was still ok for me but have got nothing much to do over there. The only thing that I need to do was to check on the machine and waiting for people to use the betting kiosk. Was quite a boring job but still not bad as i can get to surround by gamblers and get use to the gambling environment first before i get to casino to work.

Had also went to a wedding dinner after work yesterday. Was a really far place as it's at Bedok. Already feeling very tired and hungry even before we get there.

Had finally change malaysia money today already. But don't know what's happening to me as I had forgotten to bring my handphone and put on my watch out today. I've left everything at home. End up, there's alot of miss call. Weird de leh... Waiting for calls and yet no one wanted to call me, not waiting already then there's so many missed calls. Shit man...

Hai ya... don't care le la.. Tomorrow then I'll return the calls ba.

Had went to make contact lens on Saturday. Hmmm.... Maybe tml i can receive my lens already. haha... quite excited...

Feeling so down this 3 days. Don't know what happen to my darling dear dear. Haven been receiving his calls for these few days. Was very worry about him already... Can't even get thru the line when I call him. really very sad already... Hope he can call me back asap...

So sad....

2009-01-10T01:48:00.002+08:00

Jun has been sent back to China on the last day of 2008. hai... thought he can celebrate this coming Chinese New Year with us but too bad... Think the most sad person among us is mama, as Jun was mama's beloved godson. after Jun has went back to China, mama had no longer bring any food to factory to give the rest of her godson to eat le. Due to their shift had all been changed and mama can no longer saw them there and plus Jun wasn't there already, she found no point of bringing the food there.

I hope one day, we can see Jun again. I swear i will bring mama to Da Lian to visit her godson and take tour there.

Hihi...

2009-01-10T00:04:00.003+08:00

Hi... It's been sometime that i've not doing blogging already. Was bitz busy with time arrangements and training at Turf Club.

Quite a number of things happened recently... First, we'll talk about the reopening of Jurong West 505 Market. Was sooooo damn disappointed with the designer that design the market. Had let the market became so crump and difficult to walk. Tables everywhere, stalls became smaller, walking path was damn small that only a person can walk past at a time. What the .... Oh... plus the trolleys that the stall owner had to push, was really hard as the pathway was way too small for the trolleys. Shit lor... Guess people will bang their hips into the tables edge if they aren't careful... So... everyone out there, you really have to be very careful when you walk...

Next, we'll talk about my work ba... Emm... actually got nothing much to talk about. Just that I've already quit my current part time job at the stickerstamps. I was happy about but just that i can't bear to leave one of my friend there, she just came from China and her name was You You. She's a really sweet girl so i guess i will go find if I've got the time plus if she got work on that day.

Just finished the first training at Kranji Turf Club on Tuesday[6 Jan], wasn't as I expected actually. Everything was like too easy to control which made me very unsecure. I don't think it's quite a very easy shortlisted and confirm job. As it's like way too easy to handle their devices. Think he most important part is their dialects as most gamblers speaks cantonise. Plus, their work schedule was too messy already that until now i still not very sure of the reporting time as they don't have any duty roster but all base on the start time of a horse racing. So scary, so scare to be late la. Tml will be the second training le, it's an on-job training. Very scare... hmmm...

Think I've got to quickly send out resumes to other companies le. so that in case Turf Club doesn't want me, I still got to chance to get another job. Hehe...

Coming up next will be some other small small things that i've been doing. Just last Saturday[3 Jan] had bullied maomao by asking him to cook a bowl of maggie mee for me to eat. haha... so funny to see him do the cooking, was like a chef. Then was the following day, had brought maomao to Boon Lay CC to receive his Edusave Bursary, not too bad for him that he had receive a $200 for working hard for his school work. Hope he will continue to work hard this very important year of his.

Had went to school to practice on Wednesday[7 Jan]. Was really turning rusty already. Almost can't remember to steps in my favourite game, Roulette and the shuffle of cards. To my surprise was that I thought I will forget my Bacarrat rules but end up turning good. haha... Lucky for me... But sad was that i've heard that one of my trainer, Julian had left ICG to Vietnam already. So sad la... Emmm... and one the same day, I've finally met up with my darling. He brought me to eat Mcdonald. Was so contented ^o^

Oh ya right... Forgot that I've got my hair cut on Monday. So sad that my fringe was shorter than I thought. Now I've got to pin up just to prevent it from irritating my face and eyes.

Lastly, It's today's report. Just per normal give tuition the only different was this time i will have to wait for my student to be dismissed from school then get ready for tuition. I've brought maomao with me to go lot 1 nearby clinic to see doctor, which was about our face. Hai... no choice got to cure our trouble skin to look better. hai... then, had bring him to go buy new year clothes at IP Zone and now it's left with his shoes already. think will bring him go buy maybe next Monday.

Don't like papa de... thought he will give us money to go see doctor but end up it's i'm the one paying everything like maomao was my son. sian... everytime got to pay for maomao's everything. Sick and tired of it. Lucky that i've got incomes if not i will sure to be broke. But to say frankly, I could never save any money due to this problem.

Don't think it's very fair for me nor maomao. And it's no wonder that maomao had never wanted to share his problems with papa and mama. He had always reluctant to even get money from them to buy anything he longs to have cos mama will always say, ' i've got no $$$, give me 4 numbers la, strike already then can buy lor.' and papa will say, ' why must buy? last time ar, we only get 10 cents to school. 3 cents to take bus and bla bla bla...' Hai... no choice, it's generations gap. But it's lucky that mama was still better, still can discuss...

To my content that at least maomao was still mature and knows what to do. Unlike Jiaye, so old already and yet still don't go to work, just stay at home and play pc games. shit de lor. still want to be mama's boy. should earn $$$ to pay for his daily usage and expenses already and stop taking from parents, leave the rest for maomao what. But it wasn't that case lor, cos maomao's daily usage like his facial wash was i the one who's buying cos mama can't afford to pay so much le. She wasn't as young as she is, can't earn that lot already. hai.. so sian when it comes to talking about my family...

Let take a look a the pics will be better:

Mao Mao cooking maggie mee

Mao mao receiving Edusave Bursary:

Me & You You:

Happy New Year... Happy 2009

2009-01-01T03:19:00.001+08:00

Yoz... This is my very first blog in 2009... Hmmm... had enjoy only abit in the countdown as we are not in time for the countdown party today due to we [xiaoyi, joel, jordan, maomao & me] went to have some supper at Boon Lay the coffeeshop nearby.

Anyway, we are still very excited about it and was enjoying the time that we spent together even though we didn't get to countdown. hehe...

Emmm... Had to work till 9pm even on this special day so it was like kinda irritated and no mood. So the whole afternoon was like no mood to even serve customers. But... Not sure why the customers was like alot today, work until very tired.

Somemore was very unlucky... cos i still kana scolding by that stupid Melvin before the year ended and so, my mood now was damn low and angry. But anyway, I'm quiting already maybe next Monday will be my last day to work at the Stickerstamps as i've got to start work at Singapore Turf Club next Tues le. So was kinda of excited now, cos can't wait to change a better job than this one here. No double pay while working on Public Holidays, don't know how to be grateful to staff that work so hard for them. Really can only say they don't know how to use good staff. One word "STUPID".

Finally it's 2009, and the casino was going to open soon. Really can't wait any longer sort of feeling. Cos I've got more and more excited when it's getting nearer to the recruiting month which is June. Oh... Please god... I really hope that I could get the job there and show my abilities... then to my promotion there...

yoz...

2008-12-30T23:12:00.007+08:00

Hey... I'm back again to update my blog.

Had went to Chinatown on Saturday[27 Dec] after my tuition with a-jiu. Was very surprise to see that the shops there had start to sell Chinese New Year stuff already and there are loads of people shopping there too. Was very crowded indeed...

had ate these for dinner.

maomao's new watch.

Sunday [28 Dec], was like really very boring. Though had quite a number of customers but was like very empty somewhere which i don't know why. Lucky dear had came to find me and we went to have our lurch? or dinner? [not very sure is which one, haha] together and then go shopping around J8. Haha... had took a two hours break. still not bad cos at least still can feel that time really flies. However, I was very regret that i never hug dear that day before he left. was so miss him after that till now. Really hope to see him again and soon. I know that I was really greedy...

Yesterday [29 Dec], was actually my off day. But still I ended up have to work for at least half day at Bukit Panjang Plaza due to Yan and my supervisor's fault. They didn't check properly on the schedule and confirm. Then end up last min can't find anyone and so ask me to go take over for half day.

Actually I plan to go Expo bookfest but end up, I've got to cancel everything. So damn it de lor... Yan also really irresponsible, she should help Melvin to find people ma. End up push everything to me and call me to settle with Melvin my own. She's really too much le, as I feel that she should settle with Melvin on whether I can help her or not. Really very angry with her and piss off already. She's lucky that my temper was change already if not, I will really get very nasty with her.

After work, had went to Bukit Timah, Beauty World with maomao and a-jiu. It's really quite a very long time that i didn't go there. Emmm... my main purpose to go there was to buy a watch for maomao.

Old lift button

Looks like X'mas tree isn't it?

2 reindeers kissing???

Today had finally go to eat KFC already. It's been a very long time that since I last ate. Was very full after eating. haha... had finally bring maomao to cut hair today, so that he can prepare to go school on Friday.

I went to facial today again. It's really very painful... Hope that the package real finish soon... Can't stand the pain already. Kept on squeezing my pimples, think my face is gonna swollen or burst very soon. Argh... Mama, who can help me???[By the way, Jovian say my face has improve already as last time was very shiny one, haha...]

After facial, I went to ICG., my dearest school. Had saw my friend there working as a part time admin. was really happy to see her and the staff there. Finally collected my graduation photo today and saw my school boss there. haha...

I had also chat with Jovian today about the Marina Sands casino things. He told me that they are coming down for an interview in June and will still operating in Nov. They also imported 800 staffs from other countries and they need 6000 staffs in the casino. So, Jovian told me that there's a big chance that all ICG students can get the job there cos ICG still don't have so many people to give them. As ICG students altogether had only have not more than 1000. So it might not be enough then it was like throwing fishes into a shark mouth and they will gobble everything up.

Oh god... I hope what Jovian told me was true... (^.^)

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2008-12-27T01:24:00.002+08:00

After 2 days of work, I feel very sleepy. haha... cos still haven get use to travel far again. Anyway, today had finally tell darling that I quit my job at pasir panjang already. And I was being scolded by him STUPID. Boo hu hu... So sad la... Cos he didn't exactly know what happen and I don't have the intention to tell jim anyway, so forget it ba. Just let it be like what he is thinking of.

Hmmm... I'm still waiting for the turf city call but very weird that how come they still haven call me to inform me of the training time. can't wait to change job already. oh my mama... If they still don't confirm with me again, guess I've got to look for a new job again. Hai... Working at Bishan seems to be like a bit boring already. So I think I need to get a new job already. So jia you ba...

Emmm.... I wonder darling is it angry with me of quiting the pasir panjang job as after the call in afternoon, he hasn't give me any calls. Guess he was angry and disappointed already ba. Hai... I really need to find one new full time job, so he won't be disappointed with me.

I'm really sorry dear, for letting you down and disappointed... Sorry...

Had went shopping...

2008-12-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

It's really a cooling day today. I've slept till about 2pm then wake up as the weather was so nice to sleep that i really don't feel like waking up. haha... But can't do this as it will make me feel very very lazy.

At about 3pm, had met my a-jiu at JP to go shopping with maomao. There's loads of people there and it was like everyone was squeezing thru the pathway. Had took my breakfast and lurch all at the same time there. haha... [as i don't ever take any breakfast]

Never spent much at JP cos there's way too many shops there and i really don't know what should i buy. hehe... Anyway, I've finally buy a pair of new shoes for my new year. [will show it to you next time when i've taken the pics.] I'm so happy that I've finally bought it...

Hai... Tomorrow have to start working again and it's no double for the pay although it's public holiday. Really sian... Can only jia you le wor...

2008-12-23T23:56:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, darling has went to his company's D&D. heard from him that before they went to the restaurant, they also organised a Christmas party in the company. His boss has bought two bottles of white wine and a bottle of red wine. So it was like before their D&D, he has actually start drinking wine already. Plus at their dinner, they were drinking wine and beer again. and that's how he got himself drunk. Really silly... haha... But was quite worry about him so has call him to rest early today too as he say this morning when he wakes up, he still feels a bit drunk.

I had went to facial today... Really was damn pain sia... especially the chemical was apply onto my skin. Argh... God... why is it that my face has got so many pimples and problems??? Help!!!!

Anyway... Had went to BPP to shop and return the books that i've borrowed from the library. After returning the books, my uncle accompany to go shopping before we go and take our dinner at ten mile. I've bought one new year clothes and buy some snacks from Sheng Siong. I've saw a bag at ten mile which i really like it but the price was like -_-''' and the bag was a bit heavy so i was actually still considering on whether to buy it or not.

Hmmm... Think maybe these few days i will be getting the shoes already. cos i don't want to delay it till January as I think I don't really have the time to shop until then. So i hope that i can get everything done asap. Plus, hope i can get to register driving lessons soon.

Ai yoz...

2008-12-23T22:29:00.006+08:00

The past two days I've eaten quite a lot already... Think I'm getting fatter and fatter already.

Sunday, 21 Dec, my mum has organise a christmas gathering at my house. We've invited my mum's side relatives and my mum's godson... My mum was really good at cooking... All the cookings was all done by her. My house was really noisy but very fun and exciting... Cos it's been a long time that we've get together. Especially two of my uncles, the elder and the youngest one, so was like very excited to see them and feel that they really have grow up quite alot. haha...

We've also took quite a number of photos, my mum say she wants to use these photos to make a mug for my relatives. special ba???

Monday, 22 Dec, it's my aunt's daughter's wedding day [My dad's side relative]. It was held at Pasir Ris Coasta Sand Resort. Though it was quite far for us to like travel there but it was really quite a good time for us, everyone to gather together.

It was really quite an unique wedding as it's my first time to attend a wedding at the chalet. Hope that the bride and the bridegroom enjoy their day... hehe ^-^

Emm... almost got myself drunk yesterday cos i've drink a bit too much as the wine was really nice. haha... thanks uncle for the nice wine... but if the cup use was the glass i think it's much more better... haha...

Yesterday, we've got a really good, nice and long chat with my cousins. Think it's really my first time to chat so long with them as we seldom have this kind of chances to gather together. even if we did, due to we aren't very close to each other, we hardly have a very link topic to chat. So I was really surprise that we have the link topic and can chat for such a long time.

I've even overheard from my aunt that it's really very rare to see us chat like this. She has also the same thoughts as mine as in we should have more of this kind of gathering so that we can all get along and be more closer to each other.

So it's really very fun to have gather up so that we can exchange our experiences, express more of ourselves and so on... like this, we can get to know more of one another... Agree??? haha ^o^

baking...

2008-12-20T03:05:00.003+08:00

had do baking again... it's the third time of the week. First time was at Monday night i've bake the chocolate chip cookies. Then, Thursday night yan and me was trying out the new cookies baking, checkerboard, and our most familiar cookies, the chocolate chip cookies. [we've got to bake alot as we want to give out as a Christmas gift, hehe...] Last, was last night, Friday, i've bake a cake and i teach yan how to bake too... haha...

mama say it was really nice and that's the flavor and taste that she's looking for. haha... so funny...

think the appearance still have to be improve... ^o^

emmm... darling hasn't called me for the whole day le. guess he won't even give me any call tomorrow le ba... think it's really silly of me to have kept waiting right???

hahaha...

2008-12-20T02:22:00.002+08:00

quite a few days that i've didn't do blogging already. anyway, i had went to my cousin's 21st birthday party on tuesday. was a big party actually cos there's loads of people there...

hmmm... wed had went shopping at JP. finally had the choice to shop at JP after it's renovation. We bought two pieces of cake there, I like the Tiramasu very much than the mango flavor one. It also my first time to have my lurch at JP restaurant, although was quite expensive but the food was really nice.

Then, I went to school after shopping. Was very nervous to went back to school after my graduation. Marie actually did say she will go back with me but end up she didn't so i was like quite bored and scare when i was in the school. I didn't dare to go in when i reach therefore i called Raj but he didn't pick up the phone as he was doing assessment. So i just went in like i always did when i was still studying in the end. haha... had saw Raj but i didn't greet him nor say good-bye when i leave as he was doing assessment so i didn't want to disturb him. and end up, he called and ask why didn't i greet him or say good-bye to him when i leave. haha...

Lucky for me that before i graduate, i know some part time friends there that still haven't graduate yet. So at least i've known someone there that can also help me practise. hehe ^o^

Thursday had bring sheng, my cousin who has just finish his O levels to JP to find a job. Found that he's really cute, innocent and blur...You can really see that it's indeed his very first time to find a job as he really don't know alot of things. had to even teach him how to fill in the form, how to ask some important questions like the pay and so on.

He had went for about 7 interview in just a day. finally he found a waiter job and had to start work immediately the next day. haha... he's so lucky... he was soooooooooo nervous and excited for his new job and had ask me what to bring for his first day. he had to open a bank account also. therefore i brought him to the bank to open a new account as he doesn't have one. he also apply for an atm card and IBanking too. really blur blur one... haha....

damn super tired...

2008-12-15T17:55:00.002+08:00

Finally got my week off starting from today onwards... so glad and happy that i can finally get a rest and i could sleep as long as i want. haha... but don't know why today i'm super duper tired. maybe it's maybe last night just finished the popular fair at lot 1 and i took a super fast speed to clear and pack everything up.

now... i'm aching everywhere... really tired... think plus last night never sleep properly, my neck was also very aching.

hmmm... had went downstair to buy baking ingredients just now. lucky i did call maomao to go with me so i've got a helper to help me carry things back. the ingredients was really heavy especially the flour. just found out that the equipment that place sell was really expensive than the one that i always go. hai...

later at night got to do baking. haha... weird... cos i like to do baking at night and don't know why. haha...

just now, darling has finally called me, after waiting for his calls for 2 days... was really sad that i couldn't contact him at all. i don't know why i can feel that he was really sad and well i don't know how to describe the feeling.

i really don't know why this few days got so many things happen. guess what... ning has suddenly been sent back to China without any notice. so sad la... somemore we've also prepared his christmas present and now we've got no chance to give him le. wonder how was he already.